No spared Attention

Day by day, night after night, he was living the same life... He was ignored, abused and hated. "Even if I died right now, no one would care... I'm just air which you can't see... It would'nt matter if I lived or not"... He'd mumble depressing things 24/7. After all, when your bored or tired of anything, you'd have to do something. And to this young boy, what he'd do was...commiting suicide. His parents who abused him, would never care, the people around him and his school, would'nt pay attention, and since everyone hated him, they'd love to know the fact that he died. He did'nt do anything wrong. He was'nt labeled as "ugly" either. He was just simply unwanted, worthless and useless. Quotes that he heard of would say things like "we can help", or "your not alone" even "stick up for yourself, you can make a differance". But again he'd say to himself "do those people who say stupid things like that even know that whether I try to change something or not,it'd seem as if I did'nt try in the first place!?". This boy was young, but his mind was ruined, and so was his life. God did'nt notice him either. And to this boy, he'd assume "God gives horriable lives to those he does'nt notice". That was his explaination. Depression that he could so easily and deeply describe was one of his talents. For him, it became normal... "I may not be fine to others, but I've had a misfortunate life, and it's so bad that, I got used to it...That it's just expecting and ordinary...So I'm fine". He never smiled too. One day he suddenly became expressionless. If anyone told him a joke, he could'nt laugh to it. He was seen as "rude". "People believe what they think, but it's not even the truth" he'd whisper. This young boy felt so lonely-not alone, there was'nt anyone to confort him, no one to help him, no one to walk by his side for at least half of his journey. To be exact...There was no one that loved him. Not even himself. His mind did'nt feed him false hope, it also hated him. It was like everything he turned to pointed a weapon at him. No matter what direction. "If going backwards was'nt an option, then maybe I would'nt chose it", but what if there was no other option to begin with? That's what this boy was going through. So on his next birthday, that was always forgotton, he'd kill himself...And then came that day...He looked for tall buildings, things that could cause accidents, and anyone susipious that could kill him. He just chose to find a very tall sturcture. On top of some random apartment roof he had to sneak his way on top of, he stood. Running for his very death-not his life, he reached the end of the platform. Finally, nothing was under him except for air. The end was closer to him than before. It's as if he kept losing on a game, but then he gave up. "You would'nt care about darkness untill it'd disapper".

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