chapter 1

I am now on my way to work like any other morning. It has been 6 months since that accident where I lost Andy . The world hasn't change nor the people who I pass by in the street. They didn't care, It was just another day for them. They didn't see nor care about the sadness that is filling me. It was for no one to care but only  me......It felt  as if I really have no one left for me in this world.

      That fateful day was  when I lost my smile, my colour and my ray of sunshine and had become what you could say a fallen lifeless broken doll. It was a sudden goodbye , One that I would not forget and cherish it as it was my last moment with him.

Though 6 months has pass today was no different  from any other morning since the accident it was asif it was on replay button , I would have a recollection of those good days to the very last minute details, those days that would never happen again.  It was my protest to the world saying that I was never willing to let him go. It has become a part of my soul and the only meaning of my existence on this earth.

After losing my parents at 12, when our family face the worst bankruptcy . I live with my grandparents till I was 21 and after which  I moved out with Andy. They passed away shortly after like they have completed their work and as  now I  was now in capable hands. That was how much they trusted Andy .

He was always a good person and trusted by many. He has always stick with me during my worst time and have loved me as much as I loved him.From the moment when I met him which was when I moved in with my grandparents, we have always been together with him always helping me.  He was my best friend and will always be the love of my life

. The fact that i haven't done much for as compared to what he did for me would be an understatement. But he has gone away so fast before i could do anything for him with only his fading traces to accompany me.

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I reached the cafe where I work as the barrista. Before entering the cafe I muster up a smile, a perfectly acted out smile that could fool anyone . As I enter the bell chimes and Lena , the owner of the cafe look up and gave me a genuine smile , a smile that could light up anyone's day, it was an encouragement and strength needed for me to live through the day.

As the day advances the cafe got busier with me and Lena , Rin,Micheal, Simon working together .

"Haze, an order of a cappuccino, two espresso and a latte." Rin told me the order.

If I forget to mention my name is Hazel but they call me Haze.

Being the one in charge of coffee I began preparing it immediately as people hate to wait long for an order. As I was preparing , Simon came up to me and ask , "Haze, are you okay?"

"Of course I am okay" I said giving an even more wide fake smile.

He said " I know you are not and i dont know what to say but i know Andy would have want you to be happy and....um...um.."

Simon had always been bad with words but he always had the best in mind. Seeing him fumbling with words . I replied fast as i didn't want to make it uncomfortable for him.

" Thanks, Simon but I can take care of myself........ So here are the order"

As Simon left with the order I took down the fake smile from my face I know Andy would have want me to be happy but it was hard to forget someone who has always been with you. I know it was weak of me to not be able to stand alone but I needed the time to get over him , he who was with me the longest among my loved one.

This thing called destiny was so cruel ,it took away my parents , Nana and Grandpa now it took away Andy .

It took away all my dear ones . I would be crazy if I was fine.

With the days work done, I was on my way back my hands unknowingly fiddling with the ring on the necklace. It was the ring Andy proposed to me, a month prior to his death. That day had been the happiest day of my life.

(Flashback)

" Haze, sunshine where are you ?"

" I am still at work , what's wrong?" , I was getting worried , Andy never calls me when I am at work. He should also be busy during this time of the day in the firm where he had been working as a lawyer for almost 2 years.

" Sunshine I would be home late today so don't wait up ."

Not to be kidding I was disappointed , it has been a week where he is always  coming home late . I know it must have been busy at work but  I couldn't stop myself feeling down. But nevertheless I said,

" That's okay, honey ,but don't work yourself hard."

" I really want to be home early but work calls. But....... hearing your voice now is making me miss you more."

"OK you need to end the call  and go back to work or you would  miss me too much that you wouldn't be able to work anymore."

I said not able to stop the smile that was forming. I knew i would need to step up before he really throw away his work just to come home early as   He can be a really stubborn guy.

"Yes I think I need to, Haze I love  you"

"Yea , I love you too, bye"

" Bye"

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After work, at home, as I was fumbling with the switch to turn on the light in the apartment that Andy and I share for 4 years , suddenly a pathway of light  glowup  from the entrance to the living room. I could see the faint outlines of flower on the path way. Unsure of what was the special occasion it was , I follow the path lighted by the candle thinking of which special occasion I had forgotten, it wasn't a birthday or an anniversary. As I was walking on the pathway that extended till the door to the terrace While thinking about it I walked in the dark i  nearly trip on my own feet . As I was groaning and trying to get up , someone rushed in from the terrace and pick me up with his muscular arms and carried me bridal style toward the terrace. An arm I was so familiar with.....

" Andy....." I called out unsure of what the situation was.

"...... I Thought you would be at work..................

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As he didn't reply i started talking a bit louder

"hello!! Andy!! Why are you at home now and why can't I switch on the light I think something is wrong with it and we need to fix it."

"Sunshine, I love you but you need to keep quiet

for a while" he said as we reached the door of the terrace.Then he let me down on my feet in front of the closed door.

" Open it ." Andy said .

Unsure I open it and the sight before me made me gape like a dying fish.

It was a candlelight dinner.

" Andy......" I said as I went on the terrace......feeling him came up behind me... I turned back to question him on the occasion . As I turned back I saw him on the on one knee on the floor looking so handsome in his suits with a small box contain a huge diamond ring.

" Sunshine it's been almost 13 years since we have known each other and we had been dating for 8 years already. Everyday with you has been a blessing and I have no doubt that I want to spent together with you forever. So Hazel Morris will you do the honours of marrying me....?"

As he said that word I was so touched and tears  started rolling down my eyes I answered  without any hesitation

" Yes, yes, yes a thousand times yes!!!"

Then he put the ring on my finger and

He hug and lift me of the floor and circled kissing me so passionately pouring in all his emotions.

That night as we had the dinner that he prepared we talk of all the kinds of things. Sharing our thoughts about the marriage .

Unbeknownst of the tears and sadness that would come I smiled and laugh with all my heart.

( Flashback end)

As I reach the apartment and went inside ,the familiar yet so cold rooms greet me, his presence, his smell ,laughter all fading away.

All his things were kept as such in a false hope of how he would feel sad if when  he come back home  and find that all his things are gone.

Deep down I know the foolishness of this thought yet that console my tired soul .

As I slept in the bed that we had shared, the bed that has lost its warmth, a single tear slip down my cheeks realising it again that he was gone and would never be back.......

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