Chapter 5

As I walked quietly back home, I was thinking about how I felt at that moment when I killed Edward. Life leaving his body and I standing there watching everything very closely. At that moment I felt immeasurable pleasure, but stopping to think. then I was afraid of what I was becoming. Worse than being called a monster by other people, it would certainly be being a monster in fact. I pushed that thought out of my mind when I remembered why I was doing all that.

- Revenge.- I spoke softly to myself.

When I got home, I lay on my bed, which was already too small for me, I grew up a lot in those seven years of absence.

- I need to make an urgent list of what to buy so that I can live here peacefully. I'm glad I didn't spend so much money in those years.- I told myself relieved.

I fell asleep quickly. But my sleep was interrupted by a dream. No dream, nightmare.

My mother was standing next to my bed, asking why I turned into a cold and calculating murderer. She was crying desperately shaking me from side to side and I couldn't open my mouth to speak, because I was in shock that she is right there.

- MOM. - I woke up screaming with tears streaming down my face.

It was then that I realized that it was just a dream and I couldn't sleep after that. Whenever I closed my eyes, the image of my mother appeared asking me why all this was.

I got up very early, took a shower and prepared my breakfast. I ate while walking around the house looking for things that were missing so I could buy. I passed in front of a mirror that was on the first floor, in a corridor that gave access to all the rooms in the house. I was watching myself for a long time. And then an idea came to me. I needed to dye my hair, wear contact lenses to look as much as possible with the child who ran away seven years and go look for mine. Uncle Augustos as if nothing had happened to my cousin.

I needed to look innocent and train my emotional. Because just thinking about my uncle, my hands started to shine with that beautiful, crystalline blue that reminded me of the color of the waters of the River of the South Forest.