"End of a Life"

~~End of a Life~~

:Calliope Mori

We’d run right through those nights I’ll never find my way back to you inside this labyrinth of lights There was madness in the meaning, never laughless We were screaming at the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died. I’ll fly, no proof, those heights I’ll never find another chance to say “hey, thanks for saving my life” I was hopeless, it was stinging, running roadless We were singing at the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died. What was the root of it all? … I couldn’t say. Used to jump and then fall, rugged and cliched. Would shrug it off without complaint, not a sound No use in trying to find friends, cuz in the end nobody sticks around It’s when you shoved yourself into a crowded place That you turned around and found yourself in love in outer space Cue the reckless nights, no strings, laughing at our own dreams… Just what the hell was so funny? Bark up the wrong tree, stumble, used to falling great heights Amidst a concrete jungle, singing cuz it felt right We mixed the ennui and troubles, rhyming our discontent And though it’s history, I can’t forget the time that we spent Convinced that this could mean another end, exists between real and pretend A twisted alter-fiction where I missed my chance, did not ascend and Disappearing into the mist of “never happened” Is the me that I can never befriend. … I let it go. Fade in, fade out This crazy dream Without a direction, floating aimlessly There’s nothing left back there for me Breathe in, but it won’t stop the rain from pouring We’d run right through those nights I’ll never find my way back to you inside this labyrinth of lights There was madness in the meaning, never laughless We were screaming at the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died. But was there ever a soul inside? Chasing fireflies between the soaring high-rises Left a trail behind, defined it “wasted time of our lives” Silent singer, overworked and underpaid Thinks an office is a coffin until off is where you’re laid Yet a thought persists, an optimist who ought to be afraid Saw the “nothing wrong” in writing songs behind the lonely shade Is the world a sadder place without the words that you conveyed? When the ladder fell and shattered every bar that we had played? Does it matter in the end the sound diminished and decayed And your friends grew tired of fantasy, you’re wishing they had stayed? You don’t get to say “I miss you”, you watched your heroes fade Into the rear view-mirror of the villain you portrayed Stop the pity party, listen, you don’t get to be dismayed You don’t get to be emotional, feel blessed you got it made These the best of years of life because you chose to make a trade Recollect the days you hoped and you prayed for this What is there to miss? Fade in, fade out This hazy dream Without a direction, roaming aimlessly There’s nothing left back there for me Pretend it’s the end of a made up story I’ll fly, no proof, those heights I’ll never find another chance to say “hey, thanks for saving my life” I was hopeless, it was stinging, driving roadless We were singing at the top of our lungs to the numbness This city never died. I’ll say goodbye to the soul inside And yet somehow, there was romance in our self-hate “We’ve got no chance” in this light maze But let’s hold hands through the night haze We’ll run so fast ’til the school chime, ’til the train runs We know it’s time, we’re the sane ones Waking up now to the “real life” Let me daydream ’til the next night I’ll keep waiting I’ll keep waiting for you Waking up now to my real life Let me daydream ’til the next flight Drowning so long, I got older Now the crowd’s gone Is it over? Is it over…?