a life worth DYING

it all started in 8th grade my parents sent me to a counselor so I can tell her about my problem that I have sudden hyper moods that go to depressed moods in a two month span. My mom never thought it was Normal after I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I started living with my dad where he always took care of me no matter what. My dad has did also know as multiple personally disorder and he always had a problem with dealing with his alters and he only feels comfortable switching around me but sometimes he can't help it and dose it at a business meeting and that's how he got fired he has more girl alters than guy and it kind feels like they take care of me and always makes sure I am safe. My dad loves to hear what happened at school and always made sure I took my medication for my disorder. I always feel depressed after talking my medication and always wanted to harm myself and I always wanted to die. My brain triggers different Mia's. There's Mia 1 that Mia likes to make sure I am always depressed and lonely I always worry about everything with Mia 1 she always makes sure I am dull and always sad. then there's Mia 2 mia 2 loves making me mad at any time like with teachers and other students if someone is mean or unreasonably mean that's when Mia 2 like to do. Then there's Mia 3 the real Mia I always feel stuck and inside my brain Mia 1 likes to take over all the time she and Mia 2 likes to bring me down and they like to bully me they always come out and it's ruined a lot of friendship's I had everyone calls me freak and alone I feel like I have alters but I just don't wanna tell anyone. My friends that have different disorders like schizophrenia love to talk to me and calm me down after something happened like if I was to bully some one Allison likes to step in she is the only one that understands my mind. one day at school this girl wanted to sit next to me and be "friends" with me it took a while till I noticed that she was mouthing things to other girls like "freak" and "Maniac" and then Mia 2 came out she was really mad and really hurt I could tell because she made me wanna explode. I eventually shocked her really bad and it was no static shock it was a lightning shock all I could do was jump out of the window everyone was looking at Mays body on the floor she was breathing bit couldn't wake up all I could think is did I do this? Did I kill her? is she okay? That's when a teacher walked into the room and look at all the shock that surrounded the room the shock when I found out that I was special and not like anyone else

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