Judgements

I don't mind being called a "savage" in situations like that. In fact this name was one of the few sobriquets given to me by my high school classmates. If showing one's true self and honestly being what you are, is what people consider as being lacerate, then I would be proud of my name. Let the world call me as the queen of demon because I am brave enough to follow my hearts will. I'm matured enough to know that most people are crabs. Just like a basket full of them...when one crab dares to escape, it is pulled down by it's fellows. Same is case with humans around us. They themselves don't have the strength to rise above the crowd and so they do not let others to flourish. Making filthy comments about people whom they don't even truly know and trying to bring them down is now a general trait these days. It's better to shut your ears and show them the stopping hand on their face rather than wasting your time thinking of their disrespectful language.

It's not just my problem... every girl in the world is a victim of such judgements. We are judged on our physical appearance. The way we dress, our talking style, our way of action seems of more importance to people around us than ourselves. It is time that the "know it all" people, learn to mind their own business and cut off their poking nose. We won't do things favoured by you but are against us. This incident makes me so angry because of the doctor's notion of recommending without thinking...I mean who would tell about their health problems with a smile on their face. Just imagine me grinning continuously while looking at him. There will be a point when he would send me to either the neurological department or the cerebrovascular department for a brain check up. At that moment they would say that the girl has gone nuts. It's crazy dealing with people like that. Whatever you do, all you get is a dozen of ancient ideologies, ugly comments and inappropriate judgements greeting at your doorstep that makes you nothing but miserable.

It does gives a rebellious kind of feeling against the society but having a somewhat libral mindset, mostly proves helpful in every aspect of life. You may not everytime brake up into a verbal fight...of course creating nuisance out of nowhere does no good to anyone. Sometimes according to the atmosphere around, keeping quiet and playing with expressions is a great deal. I remember once me and my guys (the group I used to hang out with in my high school days... yeah... I used to call them guys or sometimes buddies, though all of them were girls) during the break were having lunch together like normal as always. We were having a merry time sharing humor with a pinch of sweetness before being interrupted by unpleasant behavior. A classmate whose name I feel unworthy of being shared over here, approached us. Apparently all the members of her group were on a sudden leave that day so she wanted to join in. The rest of the year, we were pure strangers, she never used to see our faces or talk to us, but now she was in need of company. This is a kind of selfish attitude yet we stretched out our friendly arms to enwrap her (metaphorically, please don't take it literally). Even though the warmth that we encircled her with should have been enough to drive off her self-obsessions, it felt like she was deliberately holding on to her ego. We never wanted her to be thankful to us but we did expect of her to uphold some basic public etiquettes that were usually missing in her. With all due amour propre, she shamelessly mocked, " Sia you are quite slim...if your parents are not feeding you enough you could always come to me...I'll be there to provide you with necessities." With this she burst out into a series of high pitched giggles that made her appear like a witch. I felt flames in my body. I heard everything but pretended not. I kind of ignored her completely, so much so that she started doubting her existence standing among us.

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