I don't make friends

Laura's POV:

It's been a week since that day. I didn't sleep for the whole night and when I fell asleep at 5 am, the alarm rang at 6:30 am. I hate mornings. Everytime I get up thinking why I got up? I got up and went to the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror and saw myself.

Am I really that ugly?, I thought.

I sighed and walked to the shower. After taking shower, I wore a dark blue hoodie with black jeans, it hurt my thighs bit but it's ok. I paired my clothes with sneakers.

It was already 7:20 am, so I headed downstairs. I was walking outside when I heard a voice, "Good morning, Laura. Come have breakfast."

I turned around to see mom. She was a bit sad. "No, mom. I'm not much hungry. I had some juice and late night snacks", I lied and walked out of the mansion. I took my car and drove to the uni. It was 20 minutes drive from my place.

Before getting off, I put my cap and mask on. I don't want to be bullied more because of my looks. So, I better hide it.

I went for my lecture and sat on the usual seat, last bench in the corner. Nobody sat beside me or tried to talk to me. Well, that's good. But there were some guys who tried to talk to me but I just ignored them.

It was lunchtime and the class was empty except me.

Suddenly I felt someone sitting beside me so I turned to see a handsome boy with beautiful facial features sitting beside me. He had dark hairs, brown eyes beautiful perfect nose and perfect lips. He had really good built. He looked strong.

"Hi", he said with a smile. I turned away from him, ignoring him. "I'm Kevin. Nice to meet you", he said. His voice was really nice.

"Why are you sitting here?", I said avoiding looking at him. I'm ugly and he's so much handsome. I can't even think about anything.

"I want to be friends with you", he said. "I'm ugly and good for nothing. Better stay away from me", I said with my eyes down.

"I should be the one to decide that. You didn't even tell your name or show your face. How can I see if you're really ugly or not?", he said.

"I don't wanna show you my ugly face. Go away", I said in a hard tone and tried to move him as I the bench was against the wall and I was sitting towards the wall but I couldn't move him he's really strong.

"Don't you have to go for your lunch?", I asked so that he would leave me. "What about you?", he asked.

"I'm not hungry", I said looking anywhere but him. "Me too", he said crossing his arms against his chest revealing his muscles. "Idiot", I muttered under my breath.

"Let me go. I want to go out", I said with furrowed brows. "Tell me your name and be my friend, only then I'll allow you to go", he said with innocence.

"Why do you wanna be my friend? I told you I'm ugly and useless", I said trying to convince him. "Well, I wanna be your friend because I want to and I'll decide whether you're beautiful or ugly. And you being useless is better as I'm useless too. So, we'll be good friends", he said in a most truthful way.

I sighed and slowly took my cap off followed by my mask. My gaze down not trying to face him at all. He lifted my chin up and said, "Look at me."

I looked at him, he had the look of aw in his eyes. "You're the most beautiful girl, I've ever met", he said with honesty. There was not a tiny amount of dishonesty in his eyes.

I looked away and said, "Don't lie."

He smiled and said, "You know that I'm not lying." I looked at him to see him smiling. "Laura. My name is Laura", I said in almost inaudible voice.

"Nice name, Laura", he said, the smile never vanishing off his face. We both got up from our seat and walked out. "Can we be friends now?"

"No. I don't make friends", I said with a zero emotion look. "Why?", he asked.

Why? Because my friends bully me. You'll get tired of me one day and then bully me like others. I won't allow that.

"Nothing", I said and walked away. I didn't realise that I was no longer wearing my mask as everyone was looking at me in the cafeteria.

My heartbeat started pacing and I was shivering. What would happen now? Will they all start bullying me? They'll bully me. Yes. They all will.

I felt tears in my eyes.

"Who's she?", I heard someone saying.

"I don't know but look at her", other girl said.

"She doesn't has a dressing sense. Ew", one girl said.

"She's the new transferred girl", I heard someone say. I turned to see the dean. The Dean? Why was he here?

"Hello, Laura", he said. I bowed with a small smile.

"I'm here to see if everyone is behaving properly", the Dean said looking at the people who were murmuring. "But I think, some people are here to look good rather than to study."

"Sorry, sir", everyone apologized. "Behave properly, next time I see you all saying such thing, you'll be suspended", the Dean said and left.

As soon as the Dean left, some girls started saying it all my fault and called me ugly duckling. I didn't say anything but left the cafeteria.

I went to my car and drove for almost an hour to somewhere, I don't know. I stopped my car and sobbed. Am I really that ugly? Am I such an unlucky creature? It that all my fault?

Is it my fault that I'm alive?

I wanna die too, but I don't have the courage. Yes, I know I'm a coward. But one day I'll do it. I'm scared that everyone will leave me. I'll be left alone.

So young, so damaged!!

Yes, that's what I am!!

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