Arguement

***TRIGGER ALERT!!

This chapter has attempts of self harm. Read at your own risk*.

Laura's POV**:

My parents transferred me to another school as I was not so good in my earlier school. You think my parents think about me? Nahh!! They care more about their reputation.

Well, hello. I'm Laura Watson. I'm 21 and I hurt myself. Yes, I hurt myself. I cut myself. I love it when I see blood flowing down my body. I love to cut myself. You think I'm weird?! Why? Do you know me?! Well, that's what everyone says even my parents.

Well, my family isn't poor that you think I'm depressed that I can't have anything or something like that. My dad is a businessman and has a stable business in Miami. My mom's a businesswoman too. She's the partner in my dad's business. I've a younger sister, who's 3 years younger than me. She's beautiful, good in studies, every guy wants her unlike me whom nobody wants. Well, I've got everything in my life. Rich parents, money, luxury, everything a girl dreams of!! I get anything in just a snap of my fingers.

So now, you must really think I'm weird. But think as you want. I'm not an open book. My parents think I'm arrogant but they don't know I'm depressed. Ok, let it be. I won't bore you with my stupid story now.

The word Depression is spoken phonetically as Deep Rest!!

My first day at new university....

Everyone was hooting and teasing me just like the others in my previous school. Ah! That's not so new to me. I'm used to it. I decided to wear mask in the school as I don't want people to see my face and tease me more because of my ugliness.

It was my lunchtime now. Everyone went out except me. I was still sitting in one of the corner in the last bench. After about 15 minutes, I got up and walked to the cafeteria. Everyone was staring at me.

I took a vegetable sandwich and juice and walked outside the cafeteria. I didn't wanted to be with any of them. I sat on one of the farthest bench outside and carefully looked around to see if anyone was looking at me.

There were not much of a people and they are not even bothered about their surrounding. Well, I was sitting too far from them to even notice me. I slowly took of my mask and hoodie cap that was hiding my hairs.

I slowly took a small bite of the sandwich and a sip of juice. After three bites, I felt I lost my appetite so I just kept the sandwich in the tray and put my mask and hoodie cap on and got up from there to walk towards the dustbin.

I went back for my next lecture and sat on the last bench. After all the class, I quickly got up without waiting for anyone to come to me and ask me something I won't be able to answer.

I walked outside to see a driver sent by my parents for me. "Ma'am, this way", the driver showed me the way and I followed him. We got into the car and he drove me to the mansion.

It was 5 pm already by the time we reached home. I got to my room and changed my clothes. I wore a long sleeved green tshirt with dark sweatpant. I avoid sleeveless tops and shirts and shorts in front of everyone as I would display my scars to everyone.

I went to the balcony and sat down against the wall watching the sky. I don't know for how much time I sat there but now my back was aching so I got up and walked inside my room to see it's already 8 pm.

I walked outside my room to see my parents were already home. I saw my sister, Lisa coming towards me. "Hey, sis. How was your first day? How many people hated you?", she asked with arrogance. She's beautiful but always bullies me when I say something to her my parents yell at me as she's their beautiful princess while I'm just a ugly duckling, they're ashamed of.

I just rolled my eyes and went downstairs. We went to the dining room to have our dinner. "How's your new school?", my dad asked me.

"Good", that was my short answer. I didn't even looked at him. "Listen, Laura. Don't you dare to do something stupid in this university. It's one of the top university in this city. All the rich people go there", my mom said.

"Hmm", I said while playing with my food. "Can't you be grateful towards us that we do so much for you?", mom yelled. "Let it be, mom. She's an ungrateful child. I'll make you feel proud of me", Lisa said with a smirk.

"Yeah, she'll make you proud by being with thousands of guys", I said in a monotone. "Mind your language, Laura. She's your sister", my dad said in a high tone. I looked up at him and said, "Oh is it? Didn't you hear what she said about me? Ah!! Well, she's your princess, right? Why would you say anything to her. I'm just a shame to you but I'm not sorry about it."

"Laura", dad screamed. "You just care about Lisa. What about me? Did you ever think about me? Did you ever tried to see what I'm going through?", I asked, tears trying to escape but I controlled them.

"What do you mean by that? We don't take care of you? You don't even talk to us if we ask you something", my mom said. "What do you think? I don't say anything because I know if I say something you'll yell at me and ask me not to speak back. By the way, am I really your child? The way you treat Lisa and the way you treat me are so different. Are you guys really my parents?", I asked with no emotion.

Suddenly, I felt a stinging sensation on my cheeks as I realized that dad slapped me. "Such an ungrateful child, you are!!", he said.

"Thank you, dad", I said and got up from my chair to rush to my room upstairs. I cried for almost an hour or two. My eyes were red. It was 11 pm.

I wish I was dead a long time ago. I tried but I failed. I'm too coward to commit suicide but I'm gathering all my courage to do it and I'm sure one day I'll successfully release myself from this cruel world. I got up and changed my clothes into shorts and a half sleeve shirt that showed all my scars on my thighs and hands.

I took the razor and started cutting my left hand. I let the blood flow down my hand. I saw the red blood flowing as I felt like it would release my pain, I've been burying for these years.

I was bullied in school for the past 4 years. At first I ignored everyone for almost a year but then instead of decreasing, it just got added. I felt like I was useless in this world. The most ugliest and unwanted living creature in this world.

I started staying in my room all the time. I avoided my parents. They always scolded me. They never tried to understand me. I even told them about the bullying but they said it's ok it happens in schools, you should cope up. Later, I got distant from my family. They thought I was too arrogant and ungrateful but what they didn't know is their child is suffering from a dangerous illness.

After an hour, when the blood stopped flowing I went back to the room and sat on the floor against the bed bringing my knees upto my face as I held them. I cried and cried but no one heard. They were silent sobs.

I took my diary and wrote some lines. I wrote them whenever I'm depressed. Nights are no more nights for me, they have become an escape for me.

I'm not scared of the darkness,

But...

I'm scared of being left alone in the darkness.

Please don't leave!

I need you, I need your help!!

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