Now

Now... I ran out of home and don’t depend on my parents nor people in general. The only person that stayed close to me is Mitsue. He is still handsome. No one dares to get close to him tho. He told me I was scaring people cause i was like an wild animal. I know that it’s my flaw. I don’t get close to people and neither do they. I can’t trust people because I learnt by my own that no one is worth trust from anyone. That any day they might turn their back against you. It’s scary for some people. Mitsue told me that I need more love and that my parents didn’t give me enough. Now I can’t see myself anywhere but on the Mitsu’s side. I’m here for him and he’s there for me. We are like two half of an apple.

I am glad of my situation to be honest. I don’t need to depend on people, if you do you’ll lose time. My time is not there to waist, it’s there to make me do something. Depending on people is like being in need. Being in need is useless. I’m surely missing my old me so innocent but so young I lost it, we stole it from me. Growing old is understanding. I should’ve told someone, the police or something but I didn’t react. I was too young, too innocent and too blind. I regret so much. Since childhood I was obedient because my parents wanted me to. When I ran out, they told me I was a spoiled brat and I didn’t deserve to be in this good society. I ignored them and lived my life. I learnt the importance of virginity. No one needs to know about my situation, it’s so humiliating. People who doesn’t know what truly happen, if I tell them that I lost it, they’ll say that I’m a slut or a bitch.

Mitsue told me that I was as cold as rock. I guess it’s true. I don’t intend to change. I am done like this, I will stay like this. I don’t care what they tell me, I won’t change for them. I want to stay like I am. They will never understand the true life before going through a real experience. I hate them, judging people like this. Mitsue thinks I’m silly and that it’s cute. He’s so sweet some times. No surprise all the girls are at his knees begging for his look. I love him so much as a friend. People don’t tend to go to him when I’m around. When I turn my back or go to the toilet, the girls are crowding around him like flies around a goddamn shit. It’s so annoying I won’t bite them. I’love just ignore them and tell them that they are being dumb craving for someone’s attention.

I’m being free and Mitsue and I are sticking together in all the town. The media knows about him. I know some people might say trust we are a couple but it’s not true. We are friends that’s all. No need more explanation.

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