SMILE IS FAKE 🙂
Fake. A smile. Fake. A smile. Fake. I’m. So. FAKE! FAKE! YOU MADE ME SO FAKE! Wiping away my tears because no one is going to take pity on me. All the pain I felt is a pain that will last forever. Just pretend it’s not there. I need a place to hide in so no one can see me cry. I just need to pretend that I’m okay. Pretend that my heart’s not breaking. Just fake a smile. All the fakeness I’ve put on just so they would accept me. All the hurtful truths that they have told me when I wanted honest lies. The names they called me, the constant teasing, nearly killed me. I can’t even tell my parents because I don’t want to worry them. The fake life I built is crumbling and the mask I’ve built up is shattering. As my mask fell to the floor, they cackled at my despair and sent a kick to my lower abdomen.
Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything is okay, hold back the tears and just walk away. Putting on a fake smile is actually the act of appearing happy to others while literally one is suffering internally with depressive symptoms and others struggling with depressive thoughts in their lives.
Someone once told me, you can see many smiles a day, but you never know whose lives are upside down. This later came to my understanding after I met this beautiful mama on my way home one evening inside a bus. I vividly remember how elegant the lady looked with her stylish dressing. I was so excited when she came and sat next to me. The bus had an awkward silence that I decided to start a small talk with the lady. I was not quite sure of her responses though she seemed much friendly from her smile!!
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Koya
hmm the smiles are faked the tears u hide are the truth u let no one see it
2021-08-28
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