0. Prologue

It's past noon right now. As always a nurse came to take a look at me and examine me in my room.

"The examination is done for now, please call the nurse if you need something, Shiraishi-san." said the nurse.

"Yes, thank you very much."

And then she left.

I grab my blanket and place it over my shoulder then take my sketchbook with pencil hurriedly over to the sofa next to the open window.

'There he is'

After my check up, i always take a look outside to the garden from my window. It's already became my routine. There's a same guy with the same place at the same time. He has a dark brown hair with bangs on the left side. He is quite tall, with a deep dark eyes. He is also a nice and a kind person. Right now, he has his back on me.

I opened my sketchbook and start drawing. While i draw, it makes me think back. i think it's one month ago that i first met him. Well, not exactly met, but saw him over my window as always. He has a bright smile. He help a child who fall over while playing with their friends. He always nice to the nurse and helping them until they remembered him. At first, i think it kind of weird that i saw him almost everyday, but it didn't take long until i know why.

'Ah, is that a bouquet?'

My daydream stopped. Now, he already looked this way. He smiles ever so brightly. It shocked me. I flip the page with a blank one, trying to draw his expression. I think it's time for her to get discharged from the hospital. Yes, his girlfriend.

He give the bouquet over to her. She take it and smile back to him. After that, they say their goodbye and thanks to the doctor and nurses who accompany her outside before they left.

After the doctor and nurse come inside, they were talking for a while before walking home with hand in hand. After a while, not too far from there, i see him kissing her softly then they smile and laugh together. I could only see them walk away from afar.

There's this throbbing feeling in my chest. I know what it means but i don't want to admit it. I thought i was alright. That they are nothing, that he just someone who picqued my interest, that he was just an object for me to draw. I always see them laughing together, talking with smile on his face, his worried face when she first admitted, i already saw them all but i still think i'm okay.

Until i saw that kiss. Until their last interaction. I don't know why i'm feeling this way and yet I can't even cry. I just stood there.

'What is this? what's with this feelings? this feeling is unaceptable, in so many ways'

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