That Unconditional Love 2

Sometimes she used to weirdly stare at me continuously. When I stared her back she used to turn aside. That year surprisingly her marks got reduced. But I never thought in my wildest dreams that I was the reason for that. I had become first crush to your mother's heart. No no! First love!! Your mother was so innocent that she was ignorant about what the word "crush" meant. I discovered that she was in love with me in second year degree. On March 20th your mother proposed me. Since she was plump and accordingly less attractive I had rejected her but the main reason why I rejected her was her weird nature. She was a very reserved girl. She neither spoke to boys nor looked at them. I never liked this type of girls instead I liked the modern typical ones who were open minded. I didn't like girls who behaved like Sati Saavitri(word used to describe a traditional Indian woman).  So I had rejected her but on my rejection she started pleading me for my friendship but  I was cautious if it could be a problem for me later. So I had blocked her. I had even advised her  and sent her back . I thought she would be behind me for hardly few days and then forget me and move on but I was wrong. She was continuously behind me. From that day Saturn's trouble started in my life.

Your mother was multi talented. She sung. She drew and after falling in love with me she had become a romantic poetess. She came first in everything but only in love I pushed her to the last." Akshara became serious for a moment reading the letter.

On another side Akash was walking towards Aaresh's room. 10 year old son Aaresh was sleeping. Akash put a blanket over him and walked towards his room. Riya was sleeping too. He put the blanket over her too and he lied on the bed but he couldn't fall asleep. He started thinking how life makes everyone lonely at one phase in spite of having everything.

Akshara continued reading the letter. It was written further.

" Your mother's crush for me, the butterflies she felt in her stomach by that crush, the excitement her eyes always had to see me, my smile that stole her sleep , she was eager to tell all these feelings to me . She was also eager to be my only friend. The feelings for me she had ,had filled her heart and she wanted to put it out.  But I had blocked her. But still one day she texted me all her feelings through hike account. The texts were so long that I bet anybody could ever write so much. For a moment I was stunned and I thought " Which planet do this girl belong? Do girls send such long texts to boys?"

But I was mesmerised reading the texts. She had written her feelings for me right from the beginning i.e from second p u till then. My eyes , my smile, my walking style , my serious face and the way I combed my hair was very dear to her ,she had written in those text messages. She had made me a hunk by her words. I never got any such feelings from any other girl ever. I was shy reading her texts. At the end she even said " There was still more to say I am not sending you fearing if it would annoy you" .

I was shocked. I wondered " Really! You have even more to say " . I laughed. But to accept her proposal my heart had already fallen in love with another girl who had rejected my love for her but still she had accepted my friendship. So I was close to her as a  friend. So I blocked your mother once again. Your mother reduced weight for me and became more beautiful than the girl I loved. During that time she was the dream girl of many boys in our college. But even after falling so much behind my back I didn't give heed to her feelings. I was sitting near the door that had closed for me. If your mother wished she could have loved anyone but she wanted me only. The girl whom many boys searched and stared everyday , her beautiful eyes always searched for me.

" You are my first crush, my first love, I am unable to love someone else " she used to tell me everyday. She went to depression for being rejected and ignored by me. It was difficult for her to see me with the girl I loved . She had fought with her. Even though she pleaded so much I didn't even accept her friendship because when I thought of accepting her I realised her insecure nature. I never believed in love. I believed in friendship. I wanted a girl who was open minded and friendly to other boys. I never wanted an over romantic girl who loved only me in an impractical manner. So I was irritated by her nature . Angrily I had scolded her and sent her back. But even then she made new numbers and begged me to love her. She didn't realise the difference between love and infatuation. She never crushed on  other guys. She was not even friendly to other guys. According to her this was all wrong . She said she didn't flirt with boys in the name of friendship indirectly meaning that other girls flirted with boys in the name of friendship. I was annoyed . She was outdated. She pleaded me again and again . She didn't realise what was love. She just needed a boy's company and she wanted that boy to be only me. Her extreme perfectionist nature made her impractical and made her lose in life. But still she didn't stop forcing me to love her. She pleaded me everyday. Irritated by her I left to Kerala.

To be continued.....

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