3 ╱ 4

And then, we became classmates...

"You can rest in here, and then I'll take you to your apartment tomorrow."

"Thank you, Risa-san."

I threw myself to the bed with a big exhale. I would move after the apartment finished the furnishings. I was about to do it by myself, but my mother was wrong when she paid for the studio.

For now, I stayed in my old house, which had been taken over by my uncle, my father's old brother. In the past, I couldn't stay with my uncle, since it was really packed and didn't dare to bother, so I lived in an apartment near this house back in high school.

Fourteen hours of flight did really affect me a lot. My head started to spin around. When I began to close my eyes, I recalled the airport's moment so suddenly.

"It was Ren. Truly, it was him."

He looked mature, handsome, and his height...

Just like what I had imagined before.

"WHAT I'M THINKING ABOUT!"

I screamed and punched the guiltless pillow to erase my thoughts. I stood up so suddenly and looked for a mirror. When I saw my reflection, there were tears near my eyes, about to fall. No one could expect a half-day flight would make me looked so miserable.

"He saw me like this?"

I started to be a denial. Maybe Ren didn't even recognize me in the first place. Even if it had been for two years, I also have changed. My figure plus with today's messy appearance.

He shouted after I ran away...

"What am I gonna do?"

I sat down on the bed and took my phone. I wanted to call my parents to inform them that I had arrived. If I could, I wanted to go back to New York. I shouldn't be so confident about going back to Japan, if the little accident at the airport earlier, could make me tremble and irrational like this.

I imagined things again.

I wasn't ready because it was like an ambush by an enemy when I kept my guard down.

Well, maybe, if we were to meet again, I could be prepared and didn't do a shameless thing like ever before.

I better avoid him.

But I barely know his about and situation right now. It will be a disaster if we bound to meet again in the future.

Since I have escaped from reality, especially from him...

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"... Mom, I wanna go back... No, everything is fine, it's just I suddenly don't want to be in here... Please don't be mad... I went to sleep yesterday, no chance to call you and still jetlag... Love you, mom."

I exhaled. On my phone with my mother beforehand, I was a little sad because she didn't even comfort me nor else asked about my reasons. But on the second thought, I wouldn't also answer it so quickly. She wasn't that angry, but she sounded so stern like a usual mother would be.

After called my mother, I went down to meet my cousin, Risa. There were only both of us since the others hadn't come back from their vacation.

"Risa-san, good morning."

"Syo, good morning. A Japanese breakfast?"

"I'm not picky, you can decide for yourself."

I checked my phone, aimlessly. I didn't know what I should do by now. It was so dull. I wanted to do something, but I didn't want to unload my things since it would be troublesome.

"Risa-san, I feel like my confidence has gone down to the lowest level. I think it's zero right now."

"Why did you randomly spout some nonsense? The breakfast is ready."

"I was scolded by my mom earlier."

"What the hell is happening with you? We will go to your apartment after breakfast."

No one wants to understand how I feel...

I ate without saying any words. The meal was excellent, but sadly I didn't feel well. I didn't get sick, I was normal, but my mind wasn't in a reasonable state since the encounter yesterday. I kept fighting with my inner self rather than thinking about how to keep myself calm.

"Thank you for the meal!"

"Glad you like it. We'll depart in five minutes."

I nodded. Without being any polite, I put my head on the dining table.

I was stupid back then. I know if I were to come back, there will be a moment when we are going to meet each other. But, so fast?

No, no!

I didn't do anything wrong back then... I wasn't...

Ah, I did something serious.

Maybe I should pretend not to know him if we meet again.

I laughed, but it was like mocking myself. I could say that I'm a genius since I found how to avoid Ren, but it was just a reason to comfort my stupidity. An excuse to escape from reality.

"What are you gonna do if you did something stupid to someone else?"

I mumbled. My cousin somehow listened to what I said.

"Of course, you have to apologize. What else?"

"I'm sorry, I remember something."

Why do I have to apologize? It wasn't a crime, I just...

... confessed to Ren.

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𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒖𝒑𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒔, 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝑾𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒑𝒂𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆

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