The Quest For Thyself

A young man Arjun with the disappointments and heartbreaks from his professional and personal life forfeits all his hope and zeal for life and goes in search of death. After failing at the first attempt Arjun turns stubborn to achieve death, along the journey towards death Arjun comes across a solivagant named Grahil aged between 50-60 who pulls the young man down from the steps of suicide and diverts his mind by tailing his own story of committing suicide thrice but in the name of his best friend Kanna. Grahil even promises to get Arjun meet Kanna an expert who had good knowledge about suicide. As every suicide attempt transforms Kanna stronger to give new hope and the quest for life. Grahil narrates about the first attempt of suicide that unfolds from Kanna’s heartbreak and sacrifice of love. It all starts with the random exchange of texts to the beautiful transformation from being fidus Achates to a sempiternal love. Radha and Kanna live in an undeclared long-distance relationship for a couple of years and eventually, end up as the reality of life issue strikes and Radha decides to restrict Kanna. This turns to be Kanna’s first heartbreak making him helpless to neither forget the past nor accept the reality and he ends up poisoning himself. The first attempt fails to kill Kanna but succeeds in realizing to him that life is beyond achieving love and a beloved one that we live for. It is one intense and unconditional love that every soul would have experienced in the whole life that ends up being sacrificed as an oblation for the inappropriate issues of reality in life yet the love never fades away even after ages as every glimpse of it remains cherishable for all the life. Kanna heals from the heartbreak by acceptance and realization theory which even helps Arjun after listening to it. Following a couple of years, Kanna’s father absconds to be recluse from the world. This incident thrusts Kanna into the harsh reality of life that impels him to sacrifice his dream of being an author. To avoid the problems from the past the Kanna and his mother shift to a new city where Kanna perceives every work that provided him any penny. Those were the hardest days as he experiences a roller coaster ride of life and even gets to meet the two most important people in his life Ashfaq and Sarah. With the hard work and smartness Kanna exhales to higher limits, from being a waiter to production manager at the oil company in Saudi, he ultimately owns an oil company being a millionaire within a span of 25 years. At his peaks of success Kanna losses his best friend Ashfaq in an accident at his oil company which indeed makes him bankrupt. This was the second time Kanna attempts to kill himself by hanging for suffering the loss of all the money, fame, and his best friend. But at the last knot of rope, he finds new hope and reasons to relive. Ensuing Kanna’s second attempt his wife Sarah helps him and his company in recovering financial losses and the emotional damages. Kanna capitalizes over others within a short period to regain his fame as the top business tycoon and a millionaire in the town. The second attempt sculpts him to be confident and fearless. By now his richness crafts him to be arrogant and egoistic. But there was another disaster waiting as he loses his wife, mother, and daughter in an air crash which crushes him into pieces breaking him to the core. Kanna without reason to live attempts third suicide by flinching down from the tallest bridge and deep down sixty feet underwater he experiences instant regret and finds the ultimate reason not to die anymore. He had a new hope to relive but none of the therapies from the physicians and psychiatrists would heal his pain. So he returns to his home country for nature’s therapy and even seeks a yogi for help. The yogi turns out to be his long-lost father who transmogrified to a smiling monk. Kanna seems to be gobsmacked by all the uneven twists of life, but his father helps him in accepting the reality by his disbelieving theory and mentors him to heal the pain from the past. Yogi father reveals some powerful practices to his son about the art of mastering one’s mind and life that helps Kanna to dream again in his 50’s and relives those unfulfilled dreams. This story illustrated by Grahil motivates Arjun to find the purpose of his life and inspires him to relive every phase of life like a king size.

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