ONCE ONE SAID IF YOU WERE ABLE TO LOVE THE WRONG PERSON THAT MUCH....THEN IMAGINE HOW MUCH YOU WOULD LOVE THE CORRECT PERSON.......BUT IN MY FEELING I HAD A THOUGHT THAT PEOPLE CHANGE SO EVEN IF MY LOVE WAS BAD IT CAN BECOME CORRECT FOR ME~~
I STILL REPEAT THE THINGS YOU SAID TO ME IN MY MIND~~IM JUST AN IDIOT
AN IDIOT WHO FELL IN LOVE FOR HIM AND LOVED HIM MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE.
EVEN IF THIS WASNT REAL I HAVE FELT THE WARMTH FROM YOUR WORDS...
I GOT A FEELING THAT EVEN IM A PERSON WHO CAN BE LOVED BY OTHERS.
I UNDERSTOOD THE MEANING OF LOVE BECAUSE OF HIM AS WELL AS GOT THE EXPERIENCE OF A BITTER BETRAYAL......WANTED TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS BUT THEY FELT LIKE I WAS MAD AT THEM.....
IM NOT MAD.IM HURT.THERES A DIFFERENCE~~
FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE..I GOT THE FEELING THAT I UNDERSTOOD EVERYONE AND COMFORTED THEM BUT NONE CAME FORWARD WHEN I WAS IN THE SAME POSITION..
I STARTED GETTING TRUST ISSUES,CUZ I HAVE GIVEN MY EVERYTHING AND HE TREATED THEM LIKE NOTHING,IT FEELS LIKE SOMETHING INSIDE YOU BREAKS..THAT FEELING WHEN WHEN YOUR NOT NECESSARILY SAD BUT YOU JUST FEEL REALLY EMPTY...
PEOPLE KEPT TELLING ME NOT TO GO AND GET HOPES YET I WENT CUZ I BELIVED HIM MORE THAN MYSELF THEN I NOTICED THAT MY BIGGEST MISTAKE WAS NOT LOVING HIM BUT HAVING A USELESS THOUGHT THAT HE LOVES ME BACK.
IM A PERSON WHO STILL ENJOYS LONG WALKS AND HOUR TALKS.....HE DENIED THEM.I WAS FINE WITH IT.......HE TREATED ME WITH IGNORANCE AND ATTITUDE.I BEARED THEM AND AT THE LAST FOR A SMALL MISTAKE OF MINE HE LEFT ME.
I WONDERED WHETHER HE ATLEAST TALKED ABOUT MISSING ME TO ANYONE CUZ TALKING ABOUT HIM AND MISSING HIM HAS BECOME MY DAILY ROUTINE.~~
FOR ME,THE SADDEST PART IN MY LIFE IS SAYING GOODBYE TO THE PERSON WHO I FEEL I CAN DIE FOR......BUT HE TOLD THAT WORD TO ME LIKE AS IF HE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME.....
MAYBE.....I WAS JUST A TOY FOR HIM FOR A FEW DAYS AND A NOBODY THE NEXT......
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