𝘿𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙧,
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for I was shy and not courageous enough to express my thoughts and feelings. For I now regret every moment and opportunity that I have missed.
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for I had to lie to you so you wouldn’t lose hope. For, I now truly believe it to be the worst I have ever done by giving you false hope. Would it have been better if I had uttered the bitter truth aloud? Would it have given you a chance to say goodbye to your dear ones? Did I rob it from you and everyone else?
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for refusing to acknowledge what I already knew but didn’t due to my fear, that my words when voiced out loud would turn to be a jinx. For I regret it now, a lot too late.
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for believing in miracles and prayers because what good did it ever do now? Maybe if I hadn’t, then would we have had a chance to honestly express our emotions?
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for I couldn’t do much for you. For everything that I am right now was something that you had helped with but I failed to do the same.
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for breaking your trust when you did nothing but believe in me with your life.
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for letting you down due to my lack of strength and courage. For I’m ashamed to admit that I was helpless and couldn’t do much when everyone depended on me.
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for I wasn’t strong enough to fight more for you. Would you have survived if I had done more? If I had done things differently?
𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 for disappointing you and everyone else because of my shortcomings. For, I now wish to have the power to turn back time to change your fate. Maybe then, would you be here with us?
𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆, 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖.
-x_𝘚𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵_𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴_𝘹
