Interviewer:-
"What is the reason behind your story in this book? Can you please tell us and share your opinion on writing this book (Feelings)."
Ai Mi(The writer of the book the Feelings):-
With a warm smile "Everything has a story behind but to understand....... we need a heart. When I first thought about writing the book I had no feelings nor emotions. I was free like cloud roaming everywhere. But people say we can never be the same all the time. We have to change as time goes by. The book which I wrote has a deep meaning. People with hidden love in their heart..... can understand."
Interviewer:-
Oh, so it is like this. Looks like I need to understand the book more deeply. I've heard you've so many fans. This book of yours has attracted many lovers and also the single people. Your book is really interesting. It tells the story about a girl who is in love with boy but they don't end up together. And also the question of many audience is same why they don't end up together.
Ai Mi:-
The question why they don't end up together is....... I think the readers has their own answer that why they don't end up together. A person who is madly in love knows when to stop this madness but if that person don't want to stop then all we can do is to see them breaking. I gave the name Feelings to my book is not because I've been breaking inside... . its because...... the feeling one person has when they are in love is totally different then the normal people and that feeling........ is the most beautiful ones. The girl in my book falls in love with boy who is much older then her. But their feelings for eachother is different. Boy thinks of her as a younger sister while girl has different feelings for him. The boy was very clear about her feelings but he still refused her. Though he refused her, he always used to take care of her. That boy adopted her when her parents passed away. He was their neighbor so he thought about some responsibility towards her and adopted. He took care of her. He never let her felt that she was alone. As she was growing up she started to have feelings for him. Though she didn't knew what that feeling was but she was clear that she can't leave him. And the boy who always took care of her knew her feeling but he never rejected her either. At least, if he had done that maybe...... maybe she wouldn't be in pain. The way boy treated her made her think that he was also in love with her but he wasn't. She was naive and innocent to think his kindness is love.......
Slowly slowly she fell deeply in love with him and confessed her love to him..... but.... but he didn't replied her. He clearly said that he is not in love with him but he loves her but... not the way she does. After hearing this all, she was shattered into pieces. To avoid the feelings which was changing into love for her, he decided to get married with other girl. He lied to her saying it was a business marriage but she was aware of it. She didn't asked him much and said "I will wait for you". The boy was speechless... he didn't knew what to say. And as the time was flowing he became farther and farther from her. No matter how farther he was he took care of her. He didn't took his steps back and he was aware of his responsibility towards her. She tried so hard to make him fall in love with him but he....... She knew that he was in love with her but he still refused. So, girl decides to leave him. He was about to get married with another girl so, he decided to send her America for further studies. She was clear that he was avoiding her.... so without asking any questions she left for America as he planned. The boy thought that he can avoid this feelings after sending her further but he knew his feelings clearly that he has already fallen in love with her. But he was refusing to accept that feeling. After five years they met again, he thought that the feelings inside her has changed but both of them were madly in love with each other. She expressed her feelings to him while he refused his own feelings. He knew that this will hurt both of them but still he refused. The girl was madly in love with him and she knew that this madness will only hurt her but she was willing to hurt. The boy thought that after sending her America he can suppress his feeling and can postpone his marriage but even after five years...... the feelings were same. They never changed. And at last he cruelly rejected her and married to another women. She was hurted badly but still there were smile in her face. She saw him marrying to another women while she attended the wedding as a bridesmaid. The smile in her face was fake and he clearly knew. He was in a pain to but he was refusing his own feelings even in the last moment. The girl clearly knew that he is in love with her but he don't want to accept this feelings. So, girl left him when he was marrying another women. When she left the smile in her face changed into tears....... (suddenly becomes silent)
Interviewer:-
The story is really sad. But can you explain why did she left him when she was madly in love with him. She could have fight for it and did the boy looked for her. Didn't he search for her.
Ai Mi:-
He did..... but he found her nowhere. He was searching for her like crazy but he didn't found her. He went to all the place where they went together but found no traces of her. On the other side the love she had for him has brought so much pain for her but she was happy because the moment she had spent with him was worth remembering. Although she was madly in love with him she knew when to stop this madness. And at last the only thing that left was their memories with each other. The boy was searching for her even though he didn't found any traces of her. He swear to himself to find her no matter what....... while the girl swear to herself to never fall in love again.........
Interviewer:-
Woah, story is really heart touching. If this story was real I just wonder how much has been she hurt. It's really painful. But anyway, we want to thank you about your explanation of this books. I hope you can continue to write more book.
( After finishing the interview Ai Mi left the studio)
Ai Mi was walking alone in the street and accidentally meets her old friend.
An Rong(Ai Mi's old friend):-
I....... finally found you...... Are...... you.... alright.......
Ai Mi :-
I........ I'm fine. It's been a long time since we last met.
An Rong:-
Yeah, since we last met. Can....... can we go back......
Ai Mi :-
(Looking in his eyes) No....... we... cannot......(tears falling down her eyes)
An Rong:-
Sorry.... I'm sorry....... I...... regret...... (tears rolling down his cheeks).
(Both were silent and the atmosphere doesn't seem good)
Ai Mi:-
I..... I've some work. Goodbye (Leaves from there).
An Rong:-
(Suddenly holds her hand) Don't leave........ will you..........
Ai Mi :-
When I left at that time I already decided not to look back......... so...... we..... cannot go back...
An Rong:-
I.... know you still love me..... Please don't leave this time.... will you.....
Ai Mi:-
Love........ the love in my heart is long gone.... Now, not only you even I cannot find myself. It's.... already buried inside the deep down in my heart..... No-one can find it........ (leaves from there with tears).
An Rong:-
(Weeping alone standing there) If...... if I hadn't made that mistake..... you wouldn't have left....... After 10 years.... I found you after ten years but you still can't forgive me. Yes, it was my fault... how can you forgive me. I've hurted you and I deserve this punishment...........
Even though you won't forgive me...... I........ will always stay beside you... till the day you forgive me......... I promise you...... I won't make that mistake again. I can turn the time......I will fall in love with you and won't let you go......... You have waited for me and now...... it's my turn...... to wait for you..................
