LGBTQ+
BOY'S LOVE
It's 6 in the evening and I am trying to make dinner 'trying' beings the important word here, because there is this ceratij someone who is hugging me from the back his chin resting on my ahoulder, and he is holding me as if his life depends on it
'You're in the way' I complain knowing very well that he has a rediculus answer ready for it
I am helping
How exactly?
I am keeping you company so you won't get bored
You're littrely holding both of my arms
Exactly so you won't have to work more
I give him a 'are you done' look and continue
This is Ian, my Ian he is the cutest, goofiest, sweetest and most caring person you'll ever meet
He is basically a human golden retriever- who alwys finds excuses to cling to me and follow me around and acts as if he is practically incapable of surviving 10 minutes without me.
We've been together for three years now long time right.
Sometimes I still wonder how that happened.
When he first confessed to me in college, I genuinely thought he was joking.
I mean..... Have you seen this 6ft tall guy He is as if an ethereal k pop idol and an anime charater with dark past had a baby.
He is the kind of person writer write in their books yk the head turning handsome man type, and somehow
that same person had stood in front of me, nervous and blushing, and asked me if I'd go out with him.
I was littrely shicked, and then he spend weeks trying to win me over
He brought me food when I forgot to eat. He waited for me after class. He remembered little things I'd mentioned once and pretended they weren't important.
So eventually I also stopped pretending that i wasn't falling for him and I can still remember that smile he had on his face the pure joy of it when i accepted him.
And now here we are 3 years later, out life wasn't a fairlytail people assume life becomes after falling in love.
We've fought a thousand times
Got insecure
And misunderstood each other too
There were days when loving each other was difficult but the though about leaving him still never crossed my mind
And at the end of every bad day every argumemt we still chose each other and found out way back.
Maybe that is the reason I love him even more now and with each passing day it only grows, cause our love wasn't the one without stroms it was just the one that kept surviving them.
And somewhere along the way, we made each other a promise.
No secrets.
No matter how ugly, frightening, embarrassing, or difficult the truth was, we'd tell each other.
Ian- baby let me have a bite pleaseeeeeee
Eli- it's hot honey
Ian - i can handel-
Just then his phone rang, and seeing the caller ID something shifted in his expression but it was gone before I could catch it, he picked up his phone and went to the hall,after a long few minutes he returned with that same soft smile of his
Eli- Honey what happed?
Ian- nothing baby *smiles*
Eli- but you looked.....um bad
Ian- nothing baby just a spam call and they were bugging me to buy something stupid. You tell me first as the dinner is ready I will serve it for you *bows*
Eli- you and your dramatic self *chuckles softly*
Soon he served our dinner and we both started eating
Ian- damn the food taste so good baby
Eli- ik after all I made it with all my love for you
Ian- if the food made by love for me is so good how would the cook taste *winks*
Eli - shut up and eat your dinner I say my cheeks alredy burning
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The next evening as I walk out of my office and head to the same spot where he always waits for me,feels like he's been doing this since forever.
I still remember when we were in university how clingy he was, not like he has changed at all but the one time I was trying to study and he was clingy his head resting on my shoulder
Ian I can't write with you attached to me
Then don't write naa he pouted slightly
I have exam Tommorow
I'll help
You don't even understand this subject
I understand you
That won't help me get a degree, idiot
He laughed and still didn't let go
But he isn't always the clingy goofy human
there was one time when i had a really really bad day I was feeling so down and didn't wanted to talk about it at all but he didn't leave me alone saying take your time instead he sat beside me held my hand softly and said
You don't have to tell me what's wrong. Just don't be alone with it,let me stay with you okay?
He sat with me till I felt better and just slept like a baby in his arms he never pushed me to tell what happend just stayed and made me feel worry and loved
These are the small things that make me fall for my Ian harder everyday.
Sometimes he'd be leaning against the wall, scrolling through his phone. Sometimes he'd have a coffee in his hand for me magically knowing that I had a bad day. And sometimes, when he was feeling particularly annoying, he'd hide somewhere nearby and jump out at me scaring the sh!t out of me then if complain and he'd listen as if it's the most important thing in the world.yeah he's a idiot.
But today when I reached the spot there was no one, i though maybe he got late so I waited for a while and then called him
Once
Nothing
I tried again
Still nothing
That's strange cause he always answers my calls even if he's busy he would send me a stupid emoji that was his fav or text 'five minutes baby'
I looked around 'where are you?'
Maybe he got caught up somewhere, or is just late, i start walking towards our building gancing at every corner and shop on the way, maybe he was buying something for me.
As I was nearing our building i heard some voices coming from a narrow alleyway,one of the voices sounded familiar, too familiar so i slowed and took a step towards the alley to get a clear view.
And he was there, but....
the person standing in front of me didn't look like the man who had held me from behind while I cooked dinner last night.
His hand was gripping an older man's collar, his face looked....tense, jaw locked hard and shoulders stiff, his entire posture was carrying a air of authority I had never seen in him before.
Another man stepped in- he looked like security, he reached for Ian's hand that was gripping the collar of the older man and before I could even process it he moved and that man it the road right in the face.
I almost stopped breathing and for a second no one moved then the older man said
Young master Adrian the Lamoruv family is asking you to come back.
Your mother and father are expecting your arrival to carry forward the family empire you're their only heir the last hope for the lamoruv legacy.
And then he spoke his voice cold and law totally different from the voice that calld me baby in the sweetest way that morning.
Don't come after me and go and tell your sir and Madam that I am not coming back
And now you'll have no right to interfere in the life i have build.
And stay away from what I have now, if he gets even a scratch because of you all.......
You don't know what might happen.
Young master, you think you can run away from your family forever?
I couldn't move for a full minute
The man standing in front of me was wearing my Ian's face but it didn't feel like him
My eyes drifted to his hands that were clutching the older man's collar the same hand that held mine evrynight, tha hand that huged me from behind, that fed me and comforted me always.
YOUNG MASTER ADRIAN
That name kept echoing in my head
Adrian lamoruv the heir to one of the most influential familes in the country, he had a family that too a powerful one and a freaking life i wasn't allowed to see or know about?
When I asked him for his full name in college he said
Just call me Ian
I didn't think much of it then and after that I never had a reason to ask for his full name ever again.
Who was this man actully with whome I have been living with for three whole years??
So I took a step back, i didn't call him, didn't run, i just walked away silently as the old man was still going on, soon i reached out apartment and for the first time in years I entered inside alone.
I just sat on the couch in the lovin room without switching on the lights there was too much going inside my mind to give any damn about the lights.
Last week, he'd fallen asleep on my shoulder halfway through a movie.
Three years ago, he'd stood in front of me in college, blushing while asking me out.
And today, I'd watched him throw a bodyguard to the ground.
What should I believe now? What is the truth? I had no answer for that......only he did
Three years of memories
Three years of calling him Ian and feelings the safest in his arms
Then the door clicked open Adrian walks in carrying his all too familiar smile, the same expression I have memorized over the years, he takes off his shoes and immediately starts explaining
Baby, I'm sorry I'm late. When I reached the usual place, you had already left, so I thought you must've come home alone. I should've called you, but my phone—
He is still talking walking towards me as if you kiss my forhead
Adrian lamoruv
I say quitely but he heard it cause he stops talking instantly his posture going rigid and his expression changing violently
Why? I ask my eyes glassy
You saw them he says and my eye well up it means he knew this day might come
Three years Adrian you knew everything about me, every silly wish, embarrassing moments the little things I wanted from life
Then why did you think i was not worth of knowing YOU?
Because eli, when I am with you I don't want to be Adrian lamoruv I just....want to be Ian your Ian, the one who can love you fully cling to you endlessly and behave like I might die if your away for too long
THE Ian who has a special talent of burning the pan while keeping the food raw, i don't want you to look at me and see a heir i want you to look at me and see the person who loves to to the moon and back.
So you decided i wasn't even worthy of knowing who you actully are?
No that not true, i-i was afraid he looks down at his hands
Of me?
No of losing you, i thought if you knew who I was, what kind of life I came from, who my family was you might leave
So I left that life behind i though if I kept it away from you it could never hurt you his voice became quiter
Then you could have told me, you could have trusted me told me and let me decide if I wanted to stay
I am telling you now he says his voice almost a wisper
I know eli, i should have told you but....I was selfish and afraid of losing this life I have build with you and i naver stopped to think that you deserve a choice too he looks down again
I though I was protecting you but maybe I was just protecting myself
From what??
From finding out that if i gave you the truth you might choose a life without me and I don't know what to do if you had
'So I am telling you now' he stepped back giving me space
I am Arian lamoruv, the sole heir of the Lamoruv family the one who ran away years before because I felt like a puppet more than a person, the heir they are looking for and they won't stop anytime soon, but I am still the same person who loves to from the bottom of my heart but I won't tell you to stay for that if you want to leave , i-i won't stop you.
I take a step back and I could see his breath hitching like he could see is world collapsing in front of his eyes.
Then I was forward and take his hands softly
You're still my Ian to me, no matter what you've had in your past. But you have to tell me everything, okay?
The family, the search, and what happed to you I want to know it all can you tell me?
You're not leaving?
I said your MY IAN right?
But we're going to have a very long conversation about why my boyfriend apparently had a whole terrifying family baground
He smiled through his tears and said I'll make dinner
No
Why?
Because last time you did you burned the pan while keeping the dinner raw
I watch him laugh the same laugh I have known for years
That night, we talked until there were no secrets left between us.And for the first time, I understood that love wasn't about knowing everything about someone from the beginning.
Sometimes, it was about being given the truth—and choosing to stay.
The end💜✨
