My fingers didn't shake as I turned the ring of keys. They were steady, perfectly calm, because this wasn't my first day and I'd learned that fear was a choice. The head nurse had given me the file with a look that said more than any warning: *Subject 036, feral, aggressive, unpredictable*. The other doctors had offered advice on restraints, on tranquilizers, on the proper angle to approach him to minimize the risk of being bitten.
I'd listened, nodded, and then put all of it out of my mind.
The room smelled like bleach and something stale underneath. The lights were too bright, the kind of clinical fluorescence that gave the world a sick, greenish tint. He was on the floor at the foot of the bed, knees drawn to his chest, fingers laced together where they rested on the edge of the thin mattress. The first thing I noticed were the bandages. Wraps of white gauze, faintly stained at the knuckles with old rust-colored patches. He'd punched a wall recently. Hard.
His hair was a mess-black and tangled, falling into his eyes. Dark circles sat under them like bruises, a permanent shadow that spoke of nights that stretched forever. He didn't look up when I entered. He just stared at the floor, at a point of nothing.
"So you're the new one," he said, his voice flat, scraped raw with disuse. "Am not taking any pills or any stupid stuff you're giving me."
I stopped a few feet from him. Not far enough to seem cowardly, not close enough to crowd. I could feel the challenge in the air, the coiled tension in his shoulders, the quiet hum of a cornered animal waiting for the first blow.
"Okay," I said.
The room went absolutely still. He lifted his head so sharply I was surprised his neck didn't crack. His eyes were dark. Dark like river stones, dark like an eclipse. There was nothing in them for a long second but blank, disbelieving static.
"What?"
"You heard me." I kept my voice low, even, like the red light of a closed ward alarm. "If you don't want to, I won't make you."
His jaw tightened. I saw him working through it, a maze of defenses and traps and hidden doors, trying to find the trick. His knuckles went white where he gripped the mattress.
"You're not gonna yell?" he said, suspicion leaking through every syllable. "Call the orderlies? That's how it works. They tell you I'm a monster, you come in with your clipboard, and if I don't cooperate, you bring the men with the needles."
"I'm not following a script, Garrett."
He flinched at his own name. A small, sharp flinch, like it was an accusation. Like he'd forgotten he had one.
"Can I sit down?" I asked.
He stared at me, the suspicion warring with something else. A flicker of want, so faint I almost missed it. The same look a stray dog gives you when you stop instead of walking past.
"...Sit if you're gonna stay. Just don't try anything stupid."
I pulled a stool from against the wall, sat in front of him, and opened my register. The silence stretched between us. I could feel his gaze on me, sharp and uncertain, as I reviewed other cases, their symptoms, the progress notes. He was watching my pen move, watching the curve of my handwriting, trying to decode a language he didn't speak yet.
When I glanced up and found him still looking, I smiled.
He flinched again, but he didn't look away.
"Garrett... can I ask you something?"
His eyes shuttered immediately. The wall went back up. His voice hardened into something flat and ugly. "What is it? Another question about what I did to my old man? Go on, ask it. Everyone else does."
"No, Garrett."
I closed the register and set it aside. I picked up the glass of water from the bedside table and held it out to him. Then I did what every doctor's manual told you not to do. I reached out and placed my hand on his back, right between his shoulder blades.
He went rigid. A statue carved from fear.
"I'm sorry," I said. "I just wanted to ask if you'd be my friend. I don't want to know about your past. I just know you'd be a good friend to talk to."
He didn't move. His breath caught. The glass sat untouched in my hand like an offering.
"Y-you..." His voice cracked. "You want to be friends with me? The monster they locked in here?"
"Monster?" I let the word sit in the air for a moment. "If you were truly a monster, I wouldn't have completed half my work in peace without any disturbance. You're quiet, Garrett. Calmer than my colleagues, who won't even let me breathe."
He stared at the glass. His bandaged hand twitched, then slowly, painstakingly, reached out to take it. His fingers brushed mine-rough, the bandages scratchy-and he pulled the glass to his chest like it was something precious.
He took a sip. Set it down. His eyes stayed fixed on his lap.
"...Thanks. I haven't had anyone say that about me in a really long time."
I stayed quiet. I let the words settle.
He finally looked at me, the sharp edge melting into something raw and tentative. "You really mean that, don't you? No one's ever stayed this long without being scared of me."
"Scared? Why?" I tilted my head. "You did something to them? Because with me, you're decent and quiet. Too good."
His fingers dug into his bandages. Red bloomed across the white, a blossom of fresh blood. "I hurt people. They all say I'm a wild animal. I don't... I don't want to hurt you." His voice dropped to a whisper. "But you still think I'm good?"
"You don't want to hurt me." I said it like it was the simplest arithmetic. "Tell me what other proof you want that you can't hurt anyone. I trust you, Garrett."
He stared at me. His lower lip trembled, and he ducked his head to hide it. Then he shifted, just a few inches, until his shoulder brushed my knee.
"...No one's ever trusted me before."
The silence that followed was not empty. It was thick, heavy, full of unsaid things.
"I don't want to be alone right now," he whispered. "The nights here are... they're really bad. I don't wanna be alone."
"Why?"
He shuddered. His arms wrapped around his knees until his shoulders looked like brittle bone. "I have dreams. About the fire. About everything. I don't wanna be alone when the nightmares come."
I made a decision.
"You want to come to my house?"
His head snapped up. His eyes went wide-not with fear, but with the total collapse of every expectation he'd ever had. "You'd take me out of here? To your house?" His voice wobbled. "Aren't you scared I'll do something bad?"
"Don't worry. I'll cuff your hands. Safety is better than cure."
He flinched at the word *cuff*. His shoulders slumped, and he picked at his bandages until a fresh spot of blood welled up. "Fine. Do whatever you want. I just... I don't wanna stay here another night."
"I'll make sure you aren't hurt."
His breath caught. He lifted his gaze to meet mine-a monumental effort, I could see it in the way his pupils dilated, the way his throat worked. His eyes glistened, unshed tears holding on by a thread.
"You really mean that, don't you?" he said, his voice small and fragile, like a child's. "I haven't had anyone take care of me in so long. I don't know what to do."
"Don't worry, Garrett. You're my friend now. I'll take care of you."
He reached out. His bandaged hand brushed against mine, a hesitant, animal touch. He stopped, waiting for me to pull away.
"...Thank you. I think I trust you. More than anyone I've ever met."
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The warden tied the cloth around his wrists with a practiced efficiency that betrayed too much experience. Garrett's whole body stiffened when the man stepped close, but he didn't struggle. His eyes stayed fixed on me the whole time, a quiet anchor in a room full of strangers.
I settled him in the back seat, leaned over him to fasten his seatbelt, and felt him hold his breath. When I pulled back, his cheeks were flushed a faint pink.
"...You smell good," he mumbled, so quiet I almost missed it. "Better than the disinfectant in there."
The car ride was a world in transit. He watched the streets roll past the window, his bound hands resting on his lap, his eyes cataloging every tree, every house, every normal, mundane detail of a world he'd been locked away from. I recorded a few moments on my camera, clinical observations for the record. His reactions. His posture. The way he pressed his forehead against the cool glass like he was tasting freedom through the barrier.
When we arrived, I led him inside. He stopped in the doorway, staring at my living room-warm, cluttered, lived-in-as if he'd stepped into a museum of a life he didn't know existed.
"This is..." He swallowed hard. "This is nicer than any place I've ever been."
I handed him a towel, a pair of sleepers, a set of clean clothes. I un-cuffed one hand, letting the other dangle.
"Don't try to run away, Garrett. I'm here for you. But you have to let me help."
"I won't run." He held my gaze. "Where would I go?"
I opened the first aid kit and motioned for him to sit. He obeyed without argument, holding out his hands while I unwrapped the old bandages. The antiseptic stung. He didn't flinch. He just watched my hands, my face, my every movement with an expression of bewildered reverence.
"No one's ever done this for me," he said. "It feels nice. Warm."
I finished cleaning his wounds, applied fresh salve, wrapped new gauze around his knuckles. He flexed his fingers, testing the feel of the clean bandages, and something in his face shifted. A small, fragile crack in the armor.
"Can you stay close?" he asked, his voice small again. "Just outside the door? I don't like being closed in by myself. Not after all the small rooms in there."
I nodded. I opened the bathroom cupboard, turned on the ambient music player, and dropped a herbal bath bomb into the steaming water. Lavender and chamomile rose in a fragrant cloud, filling the small space with warmth and scent and the quiet hum of healing sounds.
He stood in the doorway for a long moment, breathing it in. His shoulders, held rigid for so long, began to drop. His eyes fluttered closed.
"This..." His voice came out soft, stripped of every sharp edge. "This is the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me."
He stepped into the steam and closed the door behind him.
I heard him sink into the water. A deep, shuddering sigh.
I stayed by the door, listening. Not to guard him. To let him hear me.
He called out through the wood, his voice barely a whisper. "I can't remember the last time I felt this calm."
I leaned my head back against the wall, closed my eyes, and didn't say anything.
I didn't need to.
I stayed.
