I woke up early in the morning and kept dozing off as usual today. I had to drink those instant coffee sachets as we're all out of actual coffee.
At 7:01 am, exactly 9 minutes before the school gate closes, I rushed down to our car where my dad was already sitting in and then after I told her to "hurry",
i had to get yelled at (obviously).
At school, during the second class, the teacher Ms. Gonzalez called my name from the attendance list,
"Suzanne Anderson",
After she said it 3 times and snapped her fingers in front of my face, I finally woke up from my daydreaming and immediately answered,
"Yes Ma'am!"
While everyone else started laughing and the teacher just looked at my face in the most 'what-is-this kid-up-to' teasing kind of way with a slight chuckle and told me to pay attention. You know her words aren't the most embarrassing thing to me it isn't even about the fact that everyone else is laughing; but rather about the fact that they're looking down on you or challenging you making you feel incompetent- which is the unnerving feeling that I get every time this happens.
After the class ended and the next class was about to start, I noticed someone entering the classroom. I could sense exactly who it was by her so-called jovial laugh that is so loud that it reverberates around the entire room.
Oh.My.Freaking.Gosh.
My heart dropped. It was HER. Sally McGregor, the social butterfly of our class has returned from her vacation.
Damn it.
The girl who pretended to be my friend while trying to get information from me, the girl so cunning that it is uncomfortable to even stay in the same room as her. People with a simple mindset, often find it hard to deal with complex minded, people. I think we've all met such machiavellian people who wear masks to act harmless and then end up being trouble for us.
Well, it's very obvious the typa person Sally is. Well, now despite my dropping heart, I have to keep paying attention to class. See, that's like... my coping mechanism. By paying attention to other things (anything) and not giving attention to the unnecessary negative things (except if they're too big a problem) we can temporarily suppress our emotions; which I've been doing for quite a long time now.
I avoided eye contact with Sally as much as possible, and got throughout the class, while she still giggled and talked and pretended that the relationship that the both of us have is normal.
The next class started, the teacher interrogated each of us about our assignments, and then when I was ALMOST about to get caught for not bringing the assignment that he gave us 2 damn weeks ago, he started talking to another student.
Geez. I was saved that time.
After getting done with school, I started talking to my best friend Sasha. Sasha is very chilled, and she fills me up with relaxed yet 'profound' (which I know is a heavy word, but that's just how it is) talk. After hearing everything, she said to me,
"Just chil-lax, Suze. No need to worry about her. Just pretend like she doesn't even exist whenever you see her. It's that simple, got it?"
I chuckled at how simple she makes it sound. It's easier said than done, of course.
Sometimes, your heart needs time to accept what your brain already knows...
Talking to Sasha makes me feel better about everything. She's the constant reminder for me that: even though there's always gonna be some negative people in our lives, but still there'll always be some positive ones as well. I think... in my opinion, it's just the way the universe kinda.... balances everything out. Like, there's good AND bad.
I changed the topic and said with a smirk,
"Okay, so now let's talk about something more interesting... Derek! How's it going between you two?!"
Derek is a cute guy who likes Sasha and I set them up. So Sasha currently talks to him now too.
Sasha, the cool girl with an always composed look, suddenly just blushed a bit and then while fixing her expression back to normal, replied,
"Yeah. Fine. No biggie"
And then the both of us just continued with the typical girl-talk that best friends do all the time, as you might have already guessed. These little moments are what makes relationships so enjoyable and keeps two people close, (no matter what kinda relationship it is) that's why me and Sasha try to enjoy these little things and live in the moment. We went back home by walking, eating snacks and laughing together.
After I came back home, like every other normal person in the entire world, I get lectured by my parents at the dinner table and then I passed out on bed after the whole day. Finally making it through the day, and now enjoying the bliss of lying down on my cozy bed- the best feeling in this entire world. Just an ordinary day I have in my life.
