I always wished for 2 things: a true friend , one that will be my best friend for life, and true love. Set aside true love for now.
Then why won't my wish of a true friend come true ?
I didn't really get a true friend from school , maybe one , but not really a friend that will know everything about me and vice versa. She's very sociable and has a lot of friends while I'm an introvert and whenever I'm in a new place, I just do my best to socialise to pass time and once I have people that I always find there , I stop socialising. I just think they are enough for me.
School was mainly stress , some drama and problems that made me just want to sleep all day. No best friends.
I always heard about this type of friendship, the one where they share everything , every small thing and no judgement at all , where they call eachother at once if something big or small happens just to let them now and are overall open to eachother , not putting the facade of first impressions, where you try not to say anything wrong, not to offend them by mistake, and be a good friend overall.
Then I went to university and I thought things will change , and they did , just not much. My new friends are all great and much better than my school ones , but no best friend , no one to share everything with , no one to text all day. And when I thought I found a best friend, I suddenly find out that maybe it was one sided, not maybe , I'm sure it is. Sure they're all great friends , but still no best friend.
I honestly always wonder how they keep in touch and just talk to eachother all day, even if I want to talk to someone, it's very brief, and I don't know what to talk about. And as usual most of them are very sociable.
Do you think I'll ever have a best friend ?
