She's screaming,
Breaking,
Crying.
While hearing them say
Look at her being quiet and calm
She turns toward them and smile
She was born with a voice,
Yet,
She never learned how to speak
Because whenever she tries to speak,
Everyone goes deaf
And there she was sitting again
Quietly,
Calmly,
Smiling.
Because no matter what i did,
Something kept tearing me apart,
Whether a decision or a moment
Simply meant for the heart.
Nothing is as simple as everyone says,
Because no matter what i do,
The yearning stays.
A longing to be loved genuinely and cared,
But now when someone get close, all i feel is scared.
Fed up with twisted lies,
I'm left with throns not flowers.
What's imperfection?
Why does it matter?
Do we really need to be perfect?
Or it's just an illusion?
Anyone out there feel imperfect?
Or it's just me?
I don't blame anyone
For not loving me,
If i were to meet myself,
I wouldn't love me either.
Some of us will never be more than a shoulder.
The smile but never the tears.
The loving but never the loved.
The word but never the poem.
The words unsaid
Clenched my throat
As if suffocates my soul.
I gasped out for air
While the thoughts i held back
Comes tearing down my eyes.
Heart shattered in pieces
Yet each one of it forgives
Falling to realize that broken pieces.
Some people turn
Sad awfully young
No special reason, it seems.
But they seems almost to be born that way,They
Bruised easier
Tired faster
Cry quicker
Remember longer
And as i say,
Get sadder younger than anyone else in the world.
I know, I'm one of them.
I'm not a whole person,
I don't think i will ever be.
Parts of me died,
In the house i grew up in.
I wonder how the bird whose wings were cut off looks at the sky?
With rage?
With regret?
With grief?
With despair?
With love?
With peace?
They says
The same lesson will
Repeat itself
Until you learn it.
I wonder
If the lesson was that
No one will ever truly
Love me as much as
I love them?
Even today,
All you think that
I was an easy child,
While i drowned In the guilty of
Being a burden.
My achievements never really satisfied you,
Tried my best but you never were proud.
For you
All my failures were loud.
I was an easy child
Cause
I sacrificed my dreams
I was an easy child
Cause
I suffocated my scream
I may have been
An easy child for you,
But all you made me feel
Like i was a weight.
It's the most beautiful tragedy when artist just exist.
Their mind is a cage
Build by other people
Just don't be extraordinary.
Society makes the rules
Just stay in these lines
Don't be too bright.
I'm the friendly kid,
With no friends.
The reader,
With no stories.
The hopeless romantic
With no romance.
A shadow in daylight.
Another star at night,
I'm the one their gazed never land on
Somehow always forgotten,
I'm the chapter
People had the odds to skip.
