I feel too much for people or never good enough .I know i am ot the best but why can't they see that i try my best i don't run like them when things get hard .Maybe though i try to hard ,I pour water on fake flowers .I give my best but they don't see it but my mistakes are something they never avoid .I compare myself to a character from a book becozz she also felt the same . She gave too much of herself thinking someone might not be too shallow or tryna use her and someone might see her for who she is ,rather than just a face ,just a body ,just someone good at s** and stuff but she gets so broken disappointed that she learns to leave before people can leave her not to break their hearts but to safegaud her own .It doesn't matter anyways peopl don't care anyways. She mde herself strong enough to protect herself n her loved ones but deep down she lways wanted to feel seen too ,to feel like she was worth saving or fighting for.She turned off her emotions at last to protect her soul but smthg in her heart pinched very harshly when she used to see other girls n her friends getting this kinda safety ,this kinda love but se accepted that she wasn't wife materail,love materail anything ,she was just sm1 that can be repaced that she needs to be as desirable as she can be just for sake of getting at least temporary reassurance as permanent love wasn't in her destiny . She was powerful but even status crumble when they r made to wait .... she's me and i am her ...
