So my attention, time, everything useless ..
Wind is blowing I am too flowing..
Learning every inches of shits in this life in a very short period of time ..
Seems like I am so dumb to realising it later...
It is good if I didn't get to born..
Now facing everything in a very little phase of life..
Sometimes having thoughts of being dead is good to face these kind of things..
But what about real actions of others who gave their everything for just of my existence...
If they got to know what kind of things I am doing will they be happy..
I don't want to give shit for what I am feeling just to not to waste their hardships these days...
It would be better if i didn't exist...
But when I said to them they become sad that what about their hard works these years..
I don't want to see that anymore...
I don't know why they r loving me this much to just give their everything...
Am i deserved for ..
1 st time in a life I got a grip to want to live atleast the remaining life properly..
