I want to tell a story but I also want to keep it quiet inside my heart because the world can be cruel and loud so I will write it here like my thoughts are whispering
My lil sis is only sixteen and life hit her hard
She trusted the wrong guy .....,.
After that she changed
She started speaking less and crying more
I was angry at first and I blamed her in my mind thinking why did u do that why did u trust him
I did not see how much pain she was already carrying
I did not see how alone she felt
I forgot that she is just a kid trying to feel loved in a world that keeps asking her to be perfect
I blamed her in my mind but I kept it secret I never said it out loud I just watched her shrink I watched her cry alone I wanted to shake her and tell her to be careful but I knew it wasnt her fault I felt anger and guilt together I hated him more than anything but I couldnt stop blaming her in my head sometimes I wished I could turn back time I wished I could protect her from everything I wished I could take her pain into myself I wanted her to smile again to laugh again to feel safe again I kept my mouth shut I pretended I was okay I carried her secret like a weight
I told no one I whispered nothing to anyone I just stayed beside her silently hoping one day she could breathe freely hoping one day she would know shes not broken shes still my sis shes still strong and she deserves love respect and safety and I promised myself I would guard her heart always
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