"Okay... So... We can't be together?"
I asked... Every breath I take was dangerous... Every breath makes my eyes water, so I had to pick it all up to my chest. And probably kill myself by not breathing, because I'd rather do that, than let her see how much she effect me... How much she means... To the point that I could cause a flood because of my tears.
Fuck her... She's so selfish... And an asshole and beautiful.
"If you knew... Why did you hangout with me..." Words were like wiggling spaghetti out of my mouth. Why did she hangout with me? Why did she... Fuck...
"I thought it won't go this way..." She replied. Her voice narrowing. And final.
I let out a soft smirk... But my eyes were about leak seawaters.
"Asshole..." "I'm sorry."
I took a step back.
Is it possible for a person to ruin you like this?
Probably yes.
I realized... Love comes with many kinds. Ruining can also be loving.
She was loving me the whole time... Yet she was destroying me too. I just didn't know it yet...
"I wanna ruin you. Forever. I ruin you. So much." I said.
She stared at me.
"I ruin you too." She replied softly, her eyes softened as well.
"Then go... Ruin me... Even if it's risky."
