Internally screaming, he was drenched in the waves of his negative thoughts. This is almost his second love. Love? He is unaware of that feeling now. When she came into his life, it was so sudden, he was surprised that how can someone give him so much importance.
His trauma still responses, he overthinks way too much and can't help it. While her, she is the life of a party, an ethereal face, charming personality that anyone would fall for and they did. He observes people falling for her everyday or maybe that's just what he thinks.
"I regret whatever I have done for him, he absolutely doesn't deserve that but I was so in love with him... gosh... I hate myself..", she spoke with annoyance, another day of her ranting about her heartless ex.
Why can't she move on? Am I invisible to her? No matter how hard I try, there will be still that spark of her first love. I have left everything behind for her but she just can't...
"Gurlll come on, it's all past now, let it be, don't think about it ok?", one of our friend said as she caressed her hand making my head boil.
Even though she's a female, I'm still jealous. I rolled my eyes and took a sip from my soda, sighing in annoyance, I hope no one notice my bitch a$$ face that how much I wanna k!ll someone right now.
Me and Lana are in a secret relationship, we use to fight alot first and then I don't know how we both got closer and boom, in love. Enemies to lovers. We haven't revealed it to our friends and honestly I like it that way, no matter how much I want to claim her infront of every bitch around us, I don't want to reveal it as well because misunderstandings... who knows.
"Hey babe", she back hugged me as I was strolling around. "Hey love", unwantingly I smiled and kissed her forehead. It was 3 in the morning and since we lived in a same neighborhood, she came to see me knowing that I usually hang out at this hour.
Just talking to the sky, as a writer I like to think deeply at night, under the moonlight. "Are you mad at me?", she asked. "No babe, why would I be?", I tried my best to not show it. "I just feel like it", she whispered looking down as I held her hand and kissed it.
No matter how hard I try, she always understands me. I'm an openbook to her and still, still she manages to hurt me in some ways I can't even tell her because that's just stupid.
How do I tell her I'm so possessive over her, I want her all for me and nobody else. She's mine and will always be. But again I feel insecure, she doesn't love me the way she loved her ex. It hurts. It kills. No matter how hard I try to ignore it, it still doesn't feel like I'm her first priority.
Even though she showed me, her actions and efforts are enough for a normal person to believe that she's in love but for me? I'm still stuck on the fact that she has his belongings with her.
Is she mine physically and mentally his? Or is she forcing herself to love me? or she loves me but just regrets her past? I have a past too but I barely care about it. Maybe she's different.
I stared into her sparkly eyes, her tresses were waving in the wind. She's so angelic. God, how do I got so lucky? Her innocent eyes were searching reasons in mine and mine tried it's best to hide. I slowly leaned towards her chin and placed my lips on hers.
The sweetness of her soft plump lips makes me go insane. I'm so addicted to her, someone tell her. I moved my lips in a sync and tasted her tongue. She ate something minty, I could taste it.
I sucked on her tongue, grabbing her by her waist, tightly and I could feel her flesh under my nails, the fabric wasn't enough for her to protect her smooth skin.
I sucked so harshly on her lips making her whimper in pain, she slightly pushed me making me break the kiss.
"What's on your mind? you're not ok", her voice was stern. I shook my head in 'nothing' and smiled. She wasn't convinced but I hugged her.
Burying my head in the crook of her neck, I was lost in her scent. I placed soft kisses on her neck as she sighed. "Silas, don't hide anything from me", I knew she was stubborn. I rolled my eyes and broke our hug.
"It's nothing trust me, I just love you so damn much", I kissed her forehead making her smile. "you're so confusing but I love you more", we both smiled and hugged eachother.
I can do it, I can bear it. It's okay if I get hurt a little, it's love after all, we all get hurt in love. As long as she's with me, even if it's physically, I'll make her mine, mentally as well.
(Inpired by true events)
