I just saw her lately, my bsf for 7 years with Ryan, her arch nemesis. At first I thought they just bumped to each other out of nowhere but, I saw Julie's eyes, they were different... It's that look I've been worrying about.
She gave me mixed signals for the past 2 years and so after a year we were talking about our feelings. We had a casual hangout, talking, gossiping, sharing laughs, etc... But that's when the day we realize it was no longer just a friend. After that day, she held my hand.
I'm crying. How can she do that after holding my hand. Was it really that casual?
We looked at each other like we were some kind of strangers we somehow fall in love to. We both moved to a university. It hasn't been a week when she already found a 'pet peeve' she called. I thought that was a normal thing since she usually finds enemy so I just played it off. Wow.
After a month, she was being distance from me... I thought I should just gave her some soace and maybe she'll come up to me and talk to me again. But, no... after the day I've decided to walk around, I coincidentally met her. Not alone, but with someone.
She's smiling, holding his hand... No way it's her. As soon as her eyes met mine, I ran away, sobbing.
We never talked again, I ghosted her. I've been ignoring her texts and approaches in school. I just wish this school year ends soon so I can finally move away and move on from her.
