Feeling exhausted with emotionally and mentally. Hoping onne i would be be free from this. I can't seem to differentiate between toxic love and soft love from my family ...
Are we the problem or I'm just imagining that they're right...
May be I'm wrong for everything...
For thinking that without anything chros a day can be spend peacefully...
I admit that I'm weak physically but I'm sure that aleast I'm little bit strong mentally after went through many incidents...
Or I'm fooling myself with the lies that I'm strong mentally...
Telling myself i will do better than yesterday. Telling myself that I'm not going to drowned in the mess...
I know they love me, care about me, telling for my own good but what can i do when there caring words giving me pain...
I too want to work but i can't seem to convince myself...
So, i will be a good daughter...
I'm angry with myself that why I'm thir daughter, i do nothing except hurting them with my words whenever i try to explain or understand them. But i can't... I can't ... I try many times to change not once not twice but many times and i failed...
