Unlike what we usually see in movie, that first love is a big deal, this is where characters couldn't forget about each other even though years passed. Yeah very romantic, but in real life, first can be... Well...
Mine was forgettable. It was just a first year of highschool puppy love kind off stuff, what's more worse was... I was inexperienced that's why I suck at it. Realization hit me, I'd rather use my time for me than chat with some guy.
But, because this particular guy was the only guy I've ever been into a relationship, I'd always find myself thinking back whenever something reminds me of relationship. Not until now... I kinda forgot I even had one.
But of course...
"Hi." I was sat somewhere on the floor at my classroom , with my back leaning against the wall, I saw somebody's shoes, someone is standing in front of me.
I looked up as I took off my headphone, I recognized this guy, I dated him for like six months. I'm not even that kind of person to ghost someone, but I did that, because I was young that time and immature, I didn't know how to say no.
Embarrassingly enough, this guy who is Dan, is supposedly a grade higher than me, because I stopped for a year. Which helped for me being able to avoid him when I first came back to school, because the embarrassment was too fresh... And I wasn't stressed about anything else.
But then now, 11th grade, we're both in the same classroom, I was able to take exam and skip a whole grade, but I somehow ended up with his section. Crazy.
"Hey?..." Fuck... That kinda sound rude. I do not have the audacity to be the one sounding like that though... I literally ghosted him when I was 14... I'd like to punch myself from back then if I could.
I tried to smile, but it came out awkward.
"So—Uhm... You're my partner at this project..."
"Oh?... Okay." That sounds dry WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM ASH???
"So... I was thinking if we could do that to my house? Or yours if you'd like..."
Dan haven't changed that much. Of course when it comes to looks yeah, he used to be chubby but now... He looks like he could have an ad for protein drinks...
Joke, I like to overreact.
He's still very shy and careful. I remember falling for him through dating him, duh of course I didn't like him when I agreed to date him, I was just curious. But while dating him, he seemed so gentle, and fun... That's all I could remember. Too bad I loved myself more.
"My house..." I said. If it's my house it won't be too much hassle.
He nodded while giving me a downward grin. Great it's not so awkward and everything. When I was in 9th grade it was already so awkward, it was even more worse because 9th graders and 10th graders have the opposite schedules, so he immediately knew I'm still in 9th grade, of course he didn't know I stopped for a year, I assumed that my old classmates probably thought I was a repeater, but that's me being naive, I thought that's my biggest problem, but no... School just got even more stressing... To the point that I get how people suddenly lose their colors the more years passed by. Suddenly I was the same person I told myself I would never be when I was younger.
(To be continued)
