I too had a love story.
He fell first... but i fell harder. I didn't fell all at once... i fell a little more every day.
I kept falling deeper and deeper in his love with closed eyes. And now... i'm scared to open my eyes.
How if all of this just an illusion when i open my eyes?
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'Be my girlfriend!'
His demanding voice still ringing in my head. But his eyes said something different. His gaze as he said those demanding words looking at me as if there was only me in his universe.
"Honey what are you thinking about?" His soft voice brought me back to the present. Few months ago this guy was a stranger to me, but now he's my everything.
"Nothing~ i just reminiscent when you proposed to me." I answered him in a half teasing tone.
"Again?" His innocent face looking at me in disbelief, "Why do you keep remembering it?”
"Well, because it was the best scene in my life."
Yeah, he's the best thing that ever happened to me, even though the way we met was unusual.
So what was our meeting like?
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I'm just an ordinary girl, but i'm yapping a lot, and have a lot of friends too, while he is... he is... i don't know much about him until that day.
I was on my way to meet my friends, and after i arrived at the place we promised, i saw him among my other friends, a new peep, i had never met him before.
I am a very easy going person, so i don't really care and just sat on the empty seat right next to him.
"Hi,this is the first time i've seen you, so who are you?" The blunt me just asked him straight.
"Ernest" He answered shortly, without even asking back.
"Renata" Without caring whether he ask or not i introduced myself and offered him a handshake. But luckily he accepted my hand and didn't embarrass me.
"Ok."
My first impression of him, this few words guy isn't funny at all, dry, and look cold.
I looked at Evelyn, the one who told us to gather this time, and she knew the meaning of my gaze which seems to say 'who is this guy'.
But she just smiled and her lips moved to form a word 'Ernest', his name, what a great answer, as expected from her.
I moved my attention to everyone who present there, we chit chat like usual, talk about random things, and play some games too.
The cold guy suddenly talked a lot, gave a random questions, silly questions to be exact, no one gave attention to his silly questions, but not for me, i got itchy to answer him, so i answered him with silly answers too.
"If we can split our body into two pieces, does that mean we become half human?” His question.
"Try it then, cut yourself in two pieces and see if you still can alive and become half human." My answer.
"Later."
"...." I don't know how to reply to that 'later' he won't try it right?
"We're living our lives until the day we die, isn't that means we're actually dying?" His another silly question.
"Bruh yes we're dying everyday, because we never know when we will die."
"I see."
"Yeah you see."
He gave more questions and i answered all of his questions, We who were already sitting side by side, changed positions to face each other. We ignored people who present there, and busy with ourselves.
My second impression, he isn't that boring, even though his questions was crazy somehow, but it's fun, and i can saw a slight smile in his handsome face, so we had fun.
Days passed and we met more often, unintentionally of course, every time i met him, i asked him to give me his philosophies. It became our way to exchange our mind i guess, we talked about ourselves too, and i got to know him a bit.
And out of nowhere, when we were chatting, he suddenly proposed to me.
"Be my girlfriend!"
"Me?" I don't know why i need a confirmation even though we were talking with each other, and it looks more like and order than a proposal.
"Yes."
I was flabbergasted, we just knew each other for days, so how could he proposed to me, he must be joking, that's what i thought, so i didn't give him an answer like i usually did to his philosophies.
Not because i don't like him, he seems like a nice guy, but i'm in a phase where i don't need love, i'm tired of it, years of experience with my ex makes me want to enjoy being single.
"I have to go, see you later." So i choose to run away.
"I see, take care."
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A week passed and i didn't see him around since that day, it makes me anxious, is he avoiding me? Does he not want to talk to me anymore? So many bad thoughts fill my head.
And fortunately i saw him again, but something was off, he looks pale and he use a crutch,so i ran to him immediately.
"What happened to you?"
"Oh, i was got into car accident." Answer him lightly like it's not a big deal at all.
"Holy shit." I was surprised and embarrassed, because i think of myself too highly, and thought that he was avoiding me because i rejected him 'indirectly'.
And reality hit me, he doesn't look awkward at all after he threw bomb at me a week ago, or he already forgot about it? Because he didn't meant it? I realized how stupid i am.
"Hmm? Are you ok?"
Ups i forgot that i cursed out loud, and it's should be me who asked 'how are you ' to him.
"I'm good haha,what about you? You look worse."
"Well you see, i can't move freely but i'm ok, i'll be fine in some weeks."
"I see, good to hear, you are heading home right? Well i'll go too then, you should rest more." I thought about not bothering him anymore, even though I already felt quite comfortable with him, because i feel shame everytime i remember when he proposed to me.
"Can you stay more longer?"
I stayed, still processing what he said, i don't want to misinterpreted his meaning this time, "Well i don't want to bother you."
"No... not at all, i like to talk with you, but if you feel bother by me-
"NO" i cut his words quickly because i know where his words leading.
"I see."
So we sit and talk like usual, i asked about how the accident happened and some random things too, he explained me how it happened, even though most of his replies only yes, i see, ok, understand, he still a guy with few words after all.
"I'm bored, let's play something."
"Sure, what do you want to play?"
I pretended to think because actually i already knew what i wanted to play, "Truth or dare?"
"Ok."
"You first, t or d?"
"Truth"
Well somehow i know he will choose truth, and i really want to ask him something with this game as a way out.
"Why you proposed to me back then? Do you really like me?"
He stay silent for a while, but then he answered, "Yes i like you, i just don't want another guy to get you, so i think i need to move fast, i'm sorry if i was make you uncomfortable with that."
I was speechless, from other point of view i am indeed too sociable and even close to many male friends, but when i heard to his words, he makes me feel that i'm very popular among men. Like duh no.
"I see, but what do you like about me?" I tried to act calm, because he is also very calm for someone who just express his feelings in front of the girl he like.
"I don't know, you are just perfect."
'fvck' i hold myself to fly, and stay on the ground, "Don't you know that i have a foul mouth?"
"Yes i know, i can curse too."
"You know that sometimes i act crazy too."
"Yes and it's doesn't matter, no matter how you are i like the way you are, you can be mean or be crazy i don't care, because you are perfect in my eyes."
For the first time in my life, i heard this kind of confession about me, maybe he just flattering me, but it's sounds so honest, and enough to melt me to the ground.
"No more questions? So it's my turn right?"
"Ok your turn."
"T or D?
"Dare."
"Be my girlfriend for a month."
'Damn' why he kept giving me heart attack, i need break.
"What do you want me to do as your girlfriend?" Become a couple mean he can do 'couple things' with me, i asked just in case this is his intentions.
"Nothing, just stay by my side, talk with me like we usually do."
"I see, then sure." His answer satisfied me somehow, so i agreed.
And just like that, we become a couple just for a month, he always makes me feel loved every single day, he makes me feel wanted, his sweet words didn't sounds cringe like if i heard it from another guy. On the contrary i crave it more. His calming behavior give me peace for my chaotic and hyper behavior.
Weeks passed in the blink of an eye, and i don't want to end this dare, i want it turn to be true, i love him, i realized it now, that i fell for him.
"Can i still become your girlfriend?"
"Sure,i would be glad"
"Not as a dare."
"....." He just sat there silently without saying anything.
"Can i?" I repeat my question.
"Yes...i'm going to faint i guess."
"Why? Are you feeling unwell?"
"Because of your beauty."
"Laaame."
"Haha, but it's true."
"I love you."
"I love you more honey."
My third impression about him, he obsessed with me, i know that well, because me too, being addicted to him.
After that confessions we officially become a real couple and we told our friends, they're shocked at first, but they're happy for us, they're just can't believe that this short words guy actually can fall in love. well can't blame them, at first i don't believe it too.
They're right,when the right person enter your life, it's not just love they bring, but also healing. No drama, only peace. They didn't try to fix your wounds, they hold your hands as you heal through it. And i choose the right person.
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"Darlin' tell me how you love me?"
I don't know how many times i've asked this question. Because i like to hear his answer.
"If you were a star, you'd always be shining in my eyes honey."
"Even at daylight?"
"You'll be the sun."
"And you're my world."
This kind of love... sweet obsession... securing each other feeling, endless reassurance, he treats me in a safe way that i never knew i need it.
If this is just a dream then I don't mind sleeping forever.
If we are destined to be together, however long he live, i hope i exist one day less before him.
But if one day... we have to split apart, just remember that it's not our world being crumble, it's not our body that being torn, even though the feeling is not much different...
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-SHORT STORY COMPETITION
-TOPIC:LOVE
