I met this person in a mobile game
And we duo’d for a while before we chat
I was still recovering from the first fling that time
So I was distracting myself by drowning in games
Yes, I have been a worthless human being in pandemic
But I met this person and they were the sweetest person no joke
I was cringe as fck in chat because of some of my peer’s influence
But it is what it is
We duo’d hard with matching pfps
I’ll never be like that again
But they were a good mate
We told our burden and comforted each other through everything
We kind of healed through each other
And we just kinda hit it off real well
But I was the one who wasn’t up for letting any member of my family know about us
Wondering why I can’t open up?
We were just a weird family what can I say
So because I had addiction with games and gadgets
Devices often get confiscated and I only have TV to use
Sometimes, even that gets taken away from me
So I often unintentionally ghost that person
I ghosted them so hard I thought they forgot about me
But when I come back we hit it right back that I almost wouldn’t sleep at nights just chatting or playing with them for hours
In SeCrEt all right? That’s the taboo sht
Half of their family knows me but none of mine will know they existed
But it was cut off short because I felt bad about ghosting them
I felt like I kept making excuses and made them think I don’t want to talk to them anymore
I’m sorry I’m lost too
Why do I feel sorry about that
Anyway
It was also for the fact that it was getting risky with them becuz of my parents
So I decided to end things by ghosting them for real
Of course, after briefly saying my farewell
Anyway
To officially do that, I legit had to stop using social media
Why because they somehow figure out my other accs
Though I made another acc on the game and I was still addicted asf
Drowning myself in overstimulation
I guess games made me high and it helped me out during lockdown years
Does that make sense?
I’m one deranged dude lol
