Who unironically became a big impact in my life.
I’ll start of with something scandalous lol
Basically I liked someone who had someone else
And they sorta liked me back(?)
But they had someone, that’s the point
Back in my day.
My friends snitched I had a crush on them, and they had a crush on me back but I ran away from them cuz it was not appropriate for our age
And now they have someone.
We became friends but I realized I still like them.
Then they kinda give me mixed feelings, cuz every time we hang out it felt crazy magical.
I thought I was going insane.
But I knew it was wrong
Especially when we looked entirely illegal
Cheating is no joke so I confronted them
The disturbing thing about it is that I didn’t confront them immediately, I was stuck in a pink bubble but I eventually bursted it on my own
They begged me not to leave and told me they won’t act confusing anymore
I was clearly stupid.
I don’t know if they were actually trying with what they promised
But wtf I can’t stop thinking about them to the point I was dreaming of them in my sleep
Is it on me? Is it on them? Idk???
Anyway, we were fcking illegal. I hated that. I really hated myself.
So I went ahead to cut things off again.
They begged me but a friend was helping me out not to give in
And I made them cry.
They cried.
I was distraught.
But my friend insisted I don’t show concern
It was horrible.
I blocked them and the last time we interacted was by club activities
And we never talked again.
Just the awkward times we get to glance at each other as we walk in the hallway
And I try my best to ignore them.
Crazy part is they would linger in my mind at times our eyes met coincidentally
They’re still blocked on my social media because I’m too scared they might make the first move and I will give in again
I don’t know if they hypnotized or made rituals about me but if they did, it clearly worked
I hated myself for being the other person in the relationship cuz it still sounded like I was covered as the bestfriend
I wish I don’t face them again because I don’t want to feel fcking magical and illegal again
They were an amazing person but we were clearly fcking scandalous on the eyes of those who know.
But mind you they never admitted they saw me in that way, and they were just being friendly towards me
Either I’m dedass delusional or they’re one nasty b
I wish love didn’t make people stupid.
So I wouldn’t have been dumb asf when it comes to them.
I’ve never admitted I liked them directly but they might have caught it midconvo when I was cutting things off
::: So…Ik it’s impossible that you might be reading this but, you won
And I lost.
Real bad.
I’m still getting hurt every time I remember you cried for me
So effortlessly
You became one unforgettable person in my life.
I really really hate to admit this.
That I might turn to a candy and melt in heat and die
