It’s gonna start really annoying. Because…
I have no idea why people like me.
Someone said I somehow have that lasting effect like touching the soul
It reminds me how just listening to them really brightens them up
For them, it’s unforgettable.
For me, it’s aching. Because I’m the one leaving them behind.
I somehow started not to feel so much of them, and I know it’s too cruel.
By the time, I know I’m being too much, even if they don’t want to, I had to let them go.
I’ll never be able to forgive myself for making them cry. And each time, I comfort myself to move forward
I feel numb increasingly.
I’ll never deserve any of them back
Even if they still want me
I loved pieces of them but that alone proves I shouldn’t be together with them one more time
Because it’s horrible to feel someone elses passion while being with someone else
Each of them gave a lasting effect to me as well
I act as if it’s nothing that’s why it start to feel numb inside.
And hey, I know I may be the villain in my relationships but it hurts me too.
So here’s what I wanna say to myself:
You annoying selfish narcissistic bastard
You and your ego should piss tf off.
Stop sounding like you can make anyone fall for you.
Stop crying and move on without carrying “pieces” of them.
Otherwise just stop moping and don’t make people hope or give anyone a chance to have ideas with you.
That’s all.
