-You don't want to challenge me, Kira- he said, smiling-. I'll give you five minutes to tell me the truth. If you don't, I'll stop holding back. You choose.
She didn't respond, she felt sweat running down her back, she wanted to escape. Run to the door, lock it and leave him there, locked forever. But at the same time, he wanted to tell her everything, explain every day since the trip, tell her the reason for her actions. She even wanted to cry, hug him and cry forever.
But she couldn't, she wasn't capable of crying and confessing the whole truth because that would mean dragging him into everything, to her past, to the golden envelopes, to the changes to come. It would mean involving him in the fear of waking up one day and seeing that damn truck parked out there.
No. She couldn't do that, Vick was a good man, he deserved better.
She had to go.
She counted to five in her head, positioned her legs, and ran toward the door. She turned the handle but the door did not open. Above his head, exerting force, was Vick's hand.
-You're bad at choosing- he whispered. She dropped her hand, took a deep breath.
-Let me go.
-No.
-Please.
-Nope
- I'll tell you everything...tomorrow. Just let me go.
- You think I'll let you go so you can make up your lies at night? Not a chance. You stay here, with me.
-I'll call security.
- You're not the type to scream for help, Kira.
-You don't want this- she whispered, turning to face him.
-I. Want. You- he said, emphasizing each word, his eyes looking at her deeply-. I'm tired of the distance, I'm tired of the evasions, I'm tired of you ignoring me, I'm tired of the lies. All of that ends today, right now.
-Just let me go, Vick. These weeks... I'm not well, okay?- Vick could see the fear in his eyes, the sadness.
-I can help you- he said-, I'm sure that if you tell me what's going on, then I can help you. We can find a way to solve everything, Kira.
-We can't- she closed her eyes tightly, when she was in Vick's presence her emotions tripled, it was impossible for her to control them... when she was in Vick's presence all the lies, all the false smiles disappeared and she became a child again. scared on a bus to a new city.
-Why can't you admit it? You are Kira, the same one as three years ago and you haven't forgotten me. I know.
-You don't know anything- sadness gave way to frustration, frustration turned into helplessness and helplessness exploded as anger-, do you want to know?- she took a step forward, forcing him to retreat, then another and another until Vick ended up leaning against the desk without knowing what would happen next-. Kira is dead.
-Impossible, you're here, I see you.
-They killed her!- she burst out then-, they murdered her, they took away everything she ever had, they left her heart full of fears. I'm Lyra and I'm Kaida, I can be any of them, I can even create a new one but that won't bring me back to Kira, will it?. "I can help you" no, yo cant. You can't, you're not a police officer, you're not a detective, you're not a murderer, you're not anyone capable of facing them. Nobody can. No. Kira is dead and... every time, every damn time you mention her, when that name comes out of your mouth it all comes back, all the suffering, all the pain, all the cold and despair.
-Kira...
-No- she stopped him, raising her hand-,enough. I could bear it before you came, I could bear it all before I saw you again. This is the limit. Among us. Disappear Vick, stay away from me, forget me... if you don't then I will.
