Every morning I looked at her sitting in the next row. Beside me is my friend whom I always make fun of me for loving a person of same gender. However, I knew that she was just concerned that I might get hut In the end.Everytime I tried to confess my love to her, but she only seems to see me as a friend. I tried to court her but she never Fame me an answer. Is it still an admiration or love?
I started to have something other in the 6th grade and I know it's just admiration. However, as time passed I hate it as she hang out with some dudes whom I know are cheaters. But who am I to interfere with her, as I can only watch her from afar as a good friend.
I tried to forget my feelings for her and move on. However, everytime I tried to, she always shows up and lights my darkest days. Her radiant smile were comparable to the night stars in the sky. For me she was the prettiest girl I saw to walk with that beautiful smile and the first girl whom I fancy.
On 7th grade my friends and I played a truth or dare game together with her. Time came and it was already my turn and I decided to choose truth. However, I never taught my friends would ask me who my crush is as they already know. Feeling a bit scared for her to turn me down, I bowed my head then looked at her in the eyes a I say her name. My friends looked at the tension between us and shouted in excitement. I was ready for the worst but luckily she only gave me a smile and left the game. I felt like my heart was going to birst that time.
One day, I walked to the corridors with a smile on my face. Until I pass to a empty classroom and saw the 2 of them their holding hands kissing each other romantically. I looked as they move on. That time I never realized my tears falling. As I knew I had no chance with her from the very beginning. I am young and naive thinking I could get what I want. We are friends and I want it to remain that way. I looked at them one more time and left without a single trace of my presence.
