Nothing...
I was alone...
And I have many ppl around me but...
I still feel alone...
I want to disappear...
Can I ?
Itz enough...
Being good person in this generation is a crime I guess....😭
Everyone ordering me...
Everyone scolding me...
Everyone mocking me...
Everyone taunting me...
Just wait...
I will disappear at such a moment that no one will suspect... not even a bit...🙂
Just a few weeks or months...
Just a few...
🙂 what's the point of living if you can't even be happy for a day...
Why?
Why should I make everyone happy?
Why should I support everyone so much when I myself have to cry silently and only when, my parents are sleeping beside...
I have to resist everything...
I can't get angry? WHY?
I can't be sad ? WHY?
I can't make friends? Why?
I have to follow other's order and be like a Slave ?
Why?
Am a human too...
Half of this year...,i.e.2024, I have cried only...
Cried cried cried...
Why can't I smile for a day???
Please....
😭
I want to be free from this all....
I am not a resistor...
Why am I treated like this??
I will stab Myself...
Literally...
I will eat smthg poisonous...🙂
I will just hang myself....
Or...
Or....
Or...
Um...
I guess I can do anything to myself...
Cuz... just who cares if I live or die right???
.
.
.
.
There was only one person who never let me cry...
[am literally crying while writing all this and itz 1:32am]
U know what....
This is the reason I feel he is kind...
Cuz he cares for others... he has Heart...he is not selfish...He is a respectful person....
He never ever let me cry..
He treated me Like His Own Sister..😭
No matter what others say...🙂
He was and is Bestest person in the entire Galaxy...
I Miss Him...
God..please... keep him safe...
I have no idea where he is...
💔 God don't want me to be happy...
Maybe He has other plans....
But
I hoped too much...😓
Those "other plans" are harmful...
I hate it...
I don't wanna cry anymore 😭
How do we stop crying....
Am such a coward... I can't even scold anyone to vent my anger.....
Please God.
Take me...
But I don't wanna feel regret...😭
What do I do now?
I feel such chaos in my mind uk...
Like a mental patient...
I feel like just cutting my wrist and let the blood flow...🙂
Nice...
One more problem...
I promised someone that I wouldn't hurt myself 😢
But
I guess He won't mind it... Does he?
Would you mind it?
I won't hope anything...
🙂 I just feel like hanging myself...
Don't worry...
I won't backaway 😊
Cuz I hate myself already from the day I got my conciousness...
But just a few weeks...
Let the final exams finish n let me disappear...😊
And if I left then...
I swear on my own life (my soul)...
That I won't come back pestering anyone...
But I still have my parents...
I don't wanna leave em' alone in this fuckin world which is full of liers...
Hm...
Then I will take care of them alone...😌
🙂 if u care then show
Please don't use me I HATE THOSE KIND OF PPL...
🙂 You can find YOUR TYPE of ppl out there...
If u want to boss around then find some1 who want to be your slave...🙂
I will take care of my parents alone...🙂
If I had a siblings...
Thn I would have died just after results...
🙂 No One Cares....
Everyone just want to fulfill their own need...
🙂 I Wish I was Never Born...
I must have died just after my birth...
No me,
no prblm...
🙂💔
Suggest me methods to die....
Or just...
I won't die but
I'll disappear...
Once for all...
Trouble Gone...💔
