Life has been a mess this year I wanted to call my bestfriend over but she's out of town, this depression and anxiety is killing me, I am currently laying in my bathtub and rethinking my decisions and my whole life is flashing before my very own eyes*a single tear escaped my eyes*
"Why, why does this happen only to me"
If you're confused don't worry I will start from the beginning
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CH-1-Present ( Gray)
The only shades of love I know now is-monochrome(Present)
I was laying in my bathtub thinking that I was breathing my last breaths and rethinking my life decisions with my life flashing before my very own eyes, anxiety was overwhelming me, my heart beat was starting to increase, I was having a panic attack, in a desperate attempt I tried to get out of the tub and call my friend Syth, but to no avail.* thud*I fell to the ground still I crawled and reached to the telephone and brought it under , i still can't understand how I managed to dail the number but I was saved, luckily Syth picked up the call and came rushing. Thank God I was saved. I was in the hospital , Syth asked me what I was doing as I had a knife with me, "a knife," I asked '' I wouldn't be surprised if I woke up with a axe on me" my mind, my emotions,my speech, my body , all work like they are on their own"Siph now confused asked me what was going on, While I replied" all kids deserve parents but not all parents deserve kids , don't you agree "she obviously confused but agreed by slowly nodding her head and sat beside me , and stared at the floor, it was the first time someone remained quiet beside me, every one thought I was mad and crazy but her actions made me feel relaxed before her, she slowly asked what have you gone through ," *with two tears escaping from both of my eyes *I started "Write it down dear it would be a great story" but to my utter surprise she said it isn't a story if that's what happened in real time, a smile spread across my face as she quietly hugged me, I said "oh Dear aren't you just lovely" after a while we fell asleep in each other's arms and Syth was sleeping quietly while silent tears were escaping from my eyes , it was midnight and the atmosphere was dead silent, well I thought everyone was asleep, but suddenly Syth wipped my tears and said "I won't ask Why you were crying but it hurts to see you cry ",
"My life is blessed with you" she mumbled .
I felt true happiness for the first time that night
"oh , bless dear God"
that night was like a vivid dream I had long wished for.
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The only shades of love I know now is- you
