I want to die in a peaceful way. To die in a beautiful way. To escape this life that I have to take. I want to jump from a building but it would damage my beautiful face, worst case scenario is my body will be damage. Well I don't want that. I will be ugly.
I want to jump from a bridge above the river but I saw what happened to those bodies who just died under the water. They became fat and some cannot be identified because their face swells.
How about jumping in the overpass? Trust me ,I have thought about that for an hour. Imagining my body broken into pieces if I would be landing in a car, worst case scenario is to bw double hit by a big car. Whew! It is hard to die peacefully.
Then how about drinking poison ? Hmmm ... Ew , imagining vomiting and feeling unbearable pain before sleeping eternally. I don't want that. Then my family won't even touch me because I will smell awful. Na- ah don't want that to happen.
Slitting my veins that connect to my heart? Hello? Mercy killing? It will be painful. Trust me.
Drinking pills or over dose ? That would be cheap. Why would I even thought about that? I said dying peacefully not dying with some unidentified pills .
I give up ! Dying peacefully? How? When ?! Wait! Why did I even want to die peacefully?! Gosh! What a nonsense! Come on life , fight with me. Let's conquer the devil together. And the devil is within me.
ANGEL IS WITHIN ME!
: Hazzel B. :
#SelfReflection
