It was time if midterm exam in our school. At that time I was new there as I joined that school at mid season. At that time we Used to have sitting plans according to our rollno and my rollno was 60 at that time. In the examination day I went to the exam hall with my friends early. My seat was at 4th in second row. After few minutes the bell rang and all the rest of the students started to come inside and the teacher also came inside. I realised that our sitting plan was with class 11. At that the teacher was distributing our question papers but suddenly a student from class 11 came late. I looked at his direction and at that time I felt that my whole world stopped I was literally looking at him because he was too perfect and not to mention that he was the first guy who was my type. His tall height, deep husky voice, long black hair, long fingers with veiny hands, Board shoulders, V shaped body, sharp jawline and everything was perfect!
He came inside the class room and sat on the 2nd bench of 1st row.
Like this I always used to stare at him after finishing my exams and after the end of the exam I told my friends about this and they were super happy that finnally I like someone! But one of my friend told me that he already has a girlfriend and he is literally 5 years older than me. At that moment when she said that he has a girlfriend my eyes literally turned dark and I could feel that how much jealous I was at that time! After these things I started to gather some information about him and got to know that his name was SANDEEP. I was like I literally knew everything about him I could even write a book about him but what used to hurt was he never knew my existence. I used to admire him from far away and It hurts knowing that he was my first crush and I can even burn down the world for him but he never knew my existence!
I used to cry every night by thinking that why I am always unlucky? Why I am always unlucky in love?!
I even knew his address and his house was near mine but we never talked and we had not even made a single eye contact.
I was just too loyal for him that I literally stoped looking at other boys and stopped to talk to other boys.
I even rejected many boys because I wanted him as my partner not somebody else except him.
My friends used to say that give up already!, He doesn't even know you, and so more but I was literally against them just for him.
One day It was our computer practical and we went to the lab. As soon I entered in the lab I saw him standing and talking with the teacher. I got lost again by looking at him. But suddenly one of my friend gave me a hint to look beside him when I looked beside him at that moment my heart broke down into millions of pieces. I saw him standing there by holding a hand of a girl and they were smiling by looking at each other.
At that moment I realised that he has a girlfriend but still I didn't stopped loving him. Then one of my friend came to me and said " I told you he has al girlfriend but you didn't listen to me and you literally wasted your 1 year by loving him " I broke down but I didn't show my emotions to them I sat in my seat and I was just looking at both of them. I could feel that I was Angry, Sad, jealous, Broken at one time. I was trying to control my tears.
It was first time when I cried for a boy.
They were looking happy with eachother, they were holding there hands, they were laughing with each other. My heart was kept saying that why is it her?! Why it's not me?! I loved him for more than 1 years?!
After few minutes later they came a sat beside me as two chairs were empty and my friends were sitting infront of me. It was the first time when he sat beside me but with another girl! They were sitting with each other closely and talking lovingly while my heart was breaking. I was happy that he sat beside me for the first time but sad because with another girl. They both were talking lovely with eachother but after few minutes my heart broke when I heard him saying-
" Aww you are so cute baby"to that girl.
My friends looked at me and finally tears started to flow from my eyes as I was holding them for too long. My friends saw this. One of my friend went outside by giving me hint to also come with her we went outside and went to the washroom and suddenly I broke down infront of her and she said to me " You love him so much don't you?"
I started to cry badly after realising that all I did was loving him non stop Where he didn't he knew my existence.
After few days later of that incident I used to see him with another girl and I realised that that girl also shares the same as my EX- bestfriend.
I still used to admire him from far away and I still do knowing we will be never end up being together.......
