8 years
I haven't meet him
Back in highschool we dated eachother in our last semester for 6 month ..... But god seemed to be biased to destroy my happiness everytime. ...
As soon as I arrived to my homeland I met 3 tragedy first my accident 2nd all my scholarship money robbed and my university scholarship cancelled. ... I slowly become depressed. .. Hospital bills on the head and my educational loans .... I completed my higher education from local college..... As It ask for less money ... Working 4 part time jobs a day sleeping only 4 hr a day...
I broke up with him with lame excuse... As I don't want to drag him in a mess ...... I was free subscribed member of dark since my birth I was forced to walk on the thrones as it was only option .... But he was blessed person ..since childhood he is loved , spoiled ,pampered.... Youngest child of his family ...... If I were to tell him that i am having this blah blah.... Problem ...it'll be just like a gold digger using him ..... I don't want to be called like that even though my feeling for him are so pure and I know he would come to help me thoughtlessly if I were to ask him.......
I somehow survived 2 yr ago I freed myself from all debt now I am no more bounded..... I am just a normal web designer .... Even though I have my own private identity which I created via online business bringing me good income to enjoy my life a little.....
No more stress..... But still empty...This void just kept getting bigger and bigger .... In the end I am just a human I too wish to be loved... My memories with my first love "Azrael Sanchez" ..... Craved in my brain like tatoo...our first date in amusement park after our final exam.... Our first kiss in the medical room ..... Many group games.... The last hug we shared.... Special tiffin box he used to bring for me ....all of them.... He was so precious..... But I broked him the lame excuse which I used " I don't need you anymore you were just a toy....I just wanted to derive benefits from you...goodbye".
He must have felt bad but its okay he have many people around him to forgot my presence.... But deep inside I wish to be permanent in his life but that would be selfish isn't it....
We met again ..... He has changed.... So much that their is no warmth in his aura... He have turned into cold ,busy ,workholic ...from warm ,lively and careless person.
We shared a glance but didn't talked.... Some people tried to tease me if he is still my bf just to hear taht we broke the same year...
I just want to take enough glances at him to fill my heart ..maybe we will never met again...... I got caught... okay no problem..... In the meantime discussion of college and office life story started ...I slowly ran away from their.... Feeling suffocated by the same feeling when I compromised my everything ... I wasn't able to join my dream college ...I was the irreplacable topper of my class.....
I went to silent balcony knowing very well that my panick attack is approaching..... I have become just a psychological patient. ..insomia ,sleep walking and this panick attack have become daily part of my life.... I was catching my breath with my inhaler which I started carrying since it started happening with me ...... I saw a hand offering me a glass of water which I accepted without glance... After finishing up I saw its non other than Azrael.... Looking at me worriedly..... I heard him questioning me am I okay or not..... I just said fine..... We were their for sometime .... Silently. .. My heart pounding crazily..... I choose to leave if I won't ill burst out im sure......but his strong arms stopped me by back hugging me tightly telling me go not go..... Like a fragile fl I ended up crying ... I needed his presence to make me feel im alive...... I heard him saying '' I know what happened to you in these years.... Was I this incompetent that you didn't asked my help.... And whats with that lame excuse... For breakup.... Even if that is true I don't mind to be your toy ...just use me however you want...just don't leave me .. I need you here to be with me.....he sobbed..... " When I felt his tears falling on my shoulders I immediately turns towards him.....I cupped....his face slowly wiping his tears ....this was the first time I saw him crying. ....and here I fell for him once again.....we hugged each other like our life depend on it.... We slowly broked our embrace ...... I tip toed ..
.pressing my lips against his.....he responded roughly kissing me back.... He grabbed my waist pulling me more close filling each gap between us....I wrapped my hand around his neck giving him permission to make mess out of me.... We kissed for a long time...but still felt it wasn't enough..... He hastly picked me taking me somewhere and I let him.... My lips felt lonely I again captured his lip.... And he let me do whatever I want ......we ended up in a hotel room...he locked the door..... Then I realised I have been trapped by the wolf .... That night we crossed all the boundaries all the lines which I had drawn...... We made love till sunrise.....I made countless confession about my love towards him....he kissed my all insecurities my imperfect self.....he railed me roughly whole night...made me beg for more.....I witnessed his unmasked self ..... Hugging eachother's bare self.... I felt my voids getting filled by his presence.... I woke up first around 9 am ... I felt his hands wrapped around my waist and his head buried in my breast ..... It was the best morning of my entire existence....I felt I got everything in my arms.... My home.....I felt him moving..... He wished me morning.....with big smile ....I pecked him wishing him back.....best morning......
I slowly moved only to realise my lower self have gone numb....... I heard him laughing.... I can't even complain if he would be this charming in early morning .... I gesture him to help me which he gladly did..... We had quite a long bath...it felt so good to be loved that im afraid.... I asked again is this a dream..... He was drying my hair when I again asked him ..... I received a sweet kiss of reality....yes its real.....I don't want to waste any time I believe this is the perfect time.... I slowly turned towards him..... And asked.... "Azrael.... I love you... Maybe more than I ever loved myself and my existence....I want just you in my life nothing else..... I would love to spend my life with you....Azrael will you marry me.... I promise I will be the best version of myself I will love you more and more everyday.....currently I don't have any ring to offer you but I promise I will buy very beautiful ring for you..." As soon I finished.... He showered me with kisses screaming yes ....yes ....yes loudly .... He picked me up and spinned me around .... He kissed me gently ..... And said.." Asli I love you ..... When you said those lame words.... I was angry and sad but I knew your soul....as soon as I rise in position and with the help of my uncle I searched for you..... I was late I am sorry ...... I am sorry for everytime when I wasn't their when you needed me.... I promise I will never let you down ..... I promise I'll be the best husband for you even though I was a bad bf..... I would love to marry you..... Lets get married....I cant bear your absence I have no more patience left this 8 yr were enough to drive me insane...now let me be yours forever.....Marry me Asli...." I nodded .
I realised I have no clothes with me and my last night clothes. ....he Was so desperate he teared them off...I scolded him pretty bad for this only to know he had prepared it well as if he was sure that he'll get me out of my shell....
Our classmates have gone ... In the evening we left the hotel..... I didn't asked him where he is taking me as on whole journey I was asleep after afternoon session..... When I woke up I found myself in a room ....this room was filled with his all memories ..even our highschool photos which we took alot .... secretly..... Reality hit me...wait did he brought me to his parent's house... Even though I am eager to marry him desperately.... I forgot my in laws..... In my case I become orphan when I was 12 from then I survived by myself ....I don't even know if I have any relatives or not..... I heard the door opening and five people barged inside .... My heartbeat ran at abnormally high pace out of adrenaline rush..... 2 women ,2 man and a kid.....they greeted me excitedly..... With short introduction I got to know Adela and Adelio who are twins and Azrael's elder siblings and Viella ...Adelio brother's wife.... And Ciro their son he is 5 yr old....in meantime Azrael arrived carrying his niece Zara ...sister Adela's daughter.....
I slowly went downstairs with him his whole family was settled their......bringing terror in my heart ... His grandparents , his parents , uncle and his family.... As if they were specially waiting for me .... I nervously greeted them.....which they replied me with so much energy.....I felt Azraels hand around me pulling me close to himself bringing me a little confidence that....I can do this much from him...... Session ended but his mother told me she wanted to talk to me privately.......I went to garden behind her ....she first asked me am I the same highschool girl whom he dated .....which I positively replied.... She was angry at me for doing that with her son..she shared some details of past....when we first got in relationship he had already told his mother about me .....he was serious about this from start. ....when we broke up he was extremely broken at first he used to lock himself in room and stopped talking much.... He was very messy and careless person but after that he just became way too mature....after 2 month he finally talked again only to get permission to study abroad as he got admission in A+ university.... With time he got alittle normal and one day again when he finally found about you he cried alot... He was very devastated that he wasn't their for you.... He blamed himself too much for believing that excuse You used to breakup with my son..... I am still angry at you but my son loves you alot.....in all these years and even after your break up he never burned those photos and never let anyone come close to him.....I tried to set few blind dates for him but no use... That fool loved you way too much..... I want to request this from you.....never hurt him again.....
After hearing all the things I felt very strange ....how easily he forgave me ..love surely make you fool....even your love matter more than ego...
I assured her..... I heard His family member calling for us...... His grandparents are way too open minded asking for more great- grandchildren they are even fine if we have one before our marriage....
3 month later
We got married today but beside that I have another piece of good news....I am 1 month pregnant....and as I shared this news with him he cried in happiness even the family members were happy .....as they got their naughty son back...and for me my better half......
5 yr later
My life have become a rose garden with no thorns ......now im mother of three my eldest son Ezra (4) and my lovely twins Elora and Aileen (1) ....his parents give me all the parental care and love.... I am very blessed.... And my hubby .... He just keep getting lovelier day by day......my star who brought light in my life.....
The end
