I still remember my first day of high school
It still feels like it was yesterday.
Only if I would've known from the start
Too late I guess!
The place, The people, everything.
yet I was ready to start my life all new
As I entered the class and sat next to someone that's when I felt like he is the one,
As we looked at each other, oh how shy I was if only I knew it's going to be this miserable
wish I never sat next to him.
wish I never told him my name.
wish I never joined that high school.
wish I never smiled at him.
Wish I never told my diary about him.
Only my pillow knows those silent screaming of mine.
Only those loud thunders helped me hide my vulnerable state.
Only the blanket was there to keep me warm on those numb nights.
If only I didn't meet him. If only?
Regret? Oh! how can I be so dumb when all my heart wanted was him?
He wanted me to feel like I'm his everything yet he made me feel like I'm nothing. Pathetic! isn't it?
I wish I never had those dreams
I really wish, wishing for this misery to end
but only I know how I'm now as I realized
"The day that I met you, I started dreaming"
