As new decades come the importance of education ,money ,material technology gets hyper attention ..... To achieve all this I had to learn , study do crazy hardwork since I belong to average family where one has to compromise everything.
Finally got admission this very famous school ..Wisdom vally known as the biggest institute of education covering around 1200 acres of space with diverse range in every field. ...obviously by scholarship .....many billionaire give millions just for admission for their kid in this school... The most impressive thing is that I got green batch which shows that I have came through selection not from connection. ......Those who came from connection and money are given red batch obviously to show them where they belong they cannot bully any random kid just because their parents came from influencial background. ...... You need to prove your credibility in each step.
Maybe god didn't bless me with money and enchanting face but I sure got more than average iq atleast with authentic personality. ......thats how I skipped two grades in 6 months as if my future was running wild .....
But yeah research proved it well that mostly good iq people suffers from this psychological condition and I found myself becoming one of those...
I'm fed up in compromising everything following same pattern like study eat clean sleep and all ....... I just want secure future while going through all insecurity.
All those people whom I shared my classes in those 6 months they look at me as if I did some crime by skipping grade ..... No one understand when you know that if you were to be collapse you aren't even having root of support then how will you stand up again ..... Only I know how much insecurity I have gone through just to be here .
In all those tough time I met a senior with whom now I share desk as we were in same class now .....
I collapsed in the class room and he helped me to the medical room ...and I don't know why he waited till I regain my sense . He shared me some memory of his past that he was also rushed like me once that he seemed to forgot he is just a teenager not even an adult ... He felt lost too and slowly learnt that he isn't even happy and told me to give it a small break ... Go through the bright side of days and there I found myself tearing up and ended up crying badly I felt myself having problem in breathing due to heavy crying even my nose were running and HE was their consoling me helping me to calm down I guess I needed that breakdown if not I might have deprived myself from bright sunlight.
I really liked his direct and straightforward nature .....but Im embarrassed that how badly I cried I even rubbed my nose in his handkerchief in front of him .... How horrible I might have looked at that time but he was just their ...and now when I recall my heart skipped a bit for a moment .. Hehe I found myself getting a little delusional too getting spaced out sometimes. .
With many throught I decided that I ain't gonna skip any grade anymore I want to enjoy a little more atleast .
I started off the day with bright smile and confidence only to realise that in those 6-8 month I didn't make any friend ... And I make my best list that im gonna make best of best friends here and shifted in new room where I found 3 girls from my current batch they were extremely and openely comfortable with each other that I felt myself getting afraid to befriend them but yeahhhh I did it they let me enter in their circle and guess what they really consider me as their little sister who just know only to turn pages (bookworm)..... They transformed me into new chirping bird and he is still my deskmate and that one guide whom I don't know I ever needed . He is the student council member and with this position he helped me in getting exposure in different fields like art many games different parts of the school which I didn't know that it exists. .. I singed up for many things as YOLO ....with this exposure I finally found my hobbies as I only had one hobby called READING 😶.... Now I like painting , playing basketball (he helped me with many gaming and cheating skills 🐥in game ..hehe) exploring music even though Im worst singer after Gi-an .. .... Since it was boarding school most of kid went to their home after the session ended while I just wanted to save money (even transportation is expensive ) I stayed in hostels while learning new skills and language in those months ... I felt lonely too why not I really made some good friends .. Their mouth never stop ... till someone shout at them like shut up I need to concentrate. ....haha.. Im missing them alot ... As my birthday is in those vacation month I don't feel like celebrating... As no smartphone system are allowed so no one was in contact .... Well it's nothing new as I never gave it importance ..
New year passed many season passed with deep bond of friendship. ...now I have quite a big circle of friendship with all of them helping and teasing eachother ..... And I found myself having a thin line of feelings for him which I obviously avoided since I was afraid to get blind in loveee..
We both are school representative now it felt so good like other students literally honoring you when they didn't even used to know that you existed .... With brand new year and experience.
It was last year of our school I felt like time passed like sec it felt like yesterday we were teasing eachother and now we will prepare ourselves for upcoming future .... Their is no new class no.. Nothing .....
Days passing I just realised I have fallen badly for him which I found distracting as I found myself getting lost in imagination like if I were to propose and .... many more things and tried to ignore it saying it's just infatuation which happen in adolescent age.
I avoided him so much I didn't give my heart any chance to get pleased with his slight appearance and voice ..... Its been month now its a little but tolerable I guess.
Its valentine day today and as always many girls locker are filled with love letters , chocolate and many more gift but mine have always been empty it didn't affect me but sometime I think am I really that awful that no guy likes me ... I trust my self I love my inner beauty but afraid of my external beauty as Im not that pretty like many ..... ....But he is born with that extremely blessed feature with diamond heart.... And lovely personality...... I once saw his parents and his elder sibling in parent gathering they are so warm .. Mine didn't come as they aren't that highly educated to be able to communicate in standard english but Im glad They provided me with the best they have 🙂 also it takes 2 days from my home to here so Its just waste of money when they can save it for later ...........
Ohh yeah in that 14th fab many things happened I received a letter ...... Which I confusingly was about to take thinking it as a new council meeting letter as he was the class moniter of another section of same standard .... But before I even accept the letter was snatched by HIM ... Don't know what happend later as I was called by principal office as he gave me the winnig money as I had participated in some competition because 1st prizes was money check 💰...
I got to know that He was involved in a fight with that boy who was giving me a council letter .. I was completely shocked as he was that one guy who would listen patiently before taking any action ..... And its him who raised hand first as per information I got.... They both were suspended for a week as the student- teacher council member decided and as soon as meeting ended I rushed to medical room anxiously as if my heart was there and my body here.... I saw him getting treated but as soon as I reached the room the boy who was helping him rushed out handing me the first-aid box and I confusingly helped him to treat his wounds ...... I didn't notice that intense stare I was receiving from him.... I notice it only when I was treating that wound which he got near his eye brows ..... He speaked .... He asked me why Im ignoring him which I again ignored that question. ...maybe he has gotten frustrated ..he pulled my hand tightly pulling me close but his eyes still didn't break the contact.... He pleaded ...please don't ignore me in desperate voice... Which shocked me as I believed that I'm just a classmate.... Nothing else.... But my feeling burst out .... I found myself tearing up at the sight of him getting hurt ..his grip loosen and he wiped my tears like those lover boy which confused me....... He again asked me and with no control over myself I blurt out those words ......." Don't treat me special I might get wrong idea you make me go all crazy ..okay I maybe just classmate for you but you are more than that to me...I posses those feeling for you ....... I like you ..... But I don't want you to break our friendship which I cherish alot and is very close to my heart...... Did you get this now huh....... And you don't have to answer ".I am well aware im just like other stars that are many ....I can never be your moon .. ..... Before I continue my sobbing and those words like one sided lover ..... I felt something warm in my hand he kissed the back of my hand making my loosely functioning cell malfunctioning. ..... I received a kiss on my cheek 🐥 😳😳 and I ended up in blacking out due to extreme shock and emotional exhaustion. ......... when I wake I found him beside me ... my eyes still not believing nor do any cells of my body that He had done something like that to me ....I was on daniel but he spoke out .... he told me that he liked me the very same way I felt for him .... I was very happy how can I not ....but afraid of upcoming future .... his elder brother came to pick him up .... he told me to wait for him.....
week later we met again he said lets date in our college days as I he seemed to be aware of that Im very sensitive person about my grades and future.I know his presence is enough to make me go all hazy .... He never disturbed me while studies instead he make it way more obvious for other to think he is after me.... Which I know I liked a alot .... After the final year ...... We went on our first date. ... I enjoyed a alot ...... He is most dazzling page of my life .....
After 5 year I'm finally going to my home for two month by the time entrance results will be out .... And we will are official now...... I was excited to come back why not Its not only me who sacrificed it was also my parents who allowed me to go. I was coming back from airport only to get crushed and hit by speeding car ...........
I woke up after a year from coma only to get to know that my legs have gone numb and it might take me few years to walk again ... I can no longer assist myself alone I neet 24/7 care... I lashed out at that lady who ran her car on me ....she paid all the hospital fee and even hold on me to as after 2 month of coma mostly doctor declare their patient as dead........ As she didn't wanted death case in her history .... But what to about my future hnn.... She didn't thought that what her own drunk driving can lead to.... Why .....why it has to be me I shouted as I got to know that college denied my emails and even cancel my scholar ship ....... What is the use of my extreme hardwork ..... Why... I was afraid to call any of my friend who would befriend a disable person and why would They even want to be in relationship with her I shut down all the connection that only 1 mobile number which I registered in my bio..... .. My mother told me she recieved many calls but wasnt able to explain the situation properly due to language barrier .......That was worst day of my whole life.... I used to stay in that rehabilitation centre .......zoning out thinking if I would have waited for a while instead of standing by the road......... I would have been living great college life..........I was 16 back then.... At 17 I woke up from coma....that lady offered me a brochure as if she is doing any great favour to me .... Huhh life of rich people's... to them it doesn't matter that they have destroyed someone's life and life time hardwork. ...I accepted the brochure as i was desperate to get myself out of this hospital ...... But after that accident I development certain psychological condition mostly afraid to cross road and crowds. ....... Which was once very normal and natural for me........ She seemed to be daughter of an rich architecture and she got me a seat as a disabled quota in her father's institute. ......... I accepted since I had no option I wanted to see those beautiful smile my parents face which they lost with me ...... Under the disability criteria I achieved alot of things and around my last year of course I went through expensive course for my leg treatment which was paid by that lady ....... I started to walk again...... Yes my legs are touching the beautiful land.... And I can feel vivid sensation......those happy face of my parent when they saw me again at my feet......... That lady left from my life since then now I have to achieve everything by myself ..... At first I never dreamed to be an architect particularly but while going through those phases it was best distraction from those dark thoughts that how I fell in love with this field ....... With all my strength I finally got my first project..... My client were very pleased with suggestion and designs.... and now im an lead architect......... With blood sweat and tears I finally opened my own construction firm.......... WE CONNECT construction firm .... Which slowly get wide recognition under the national construction data....
Now im earning working off well everything seemed to be at right place except my heart .....10 years have passed ....... I never contacted them due to my own insecurity.
Maybe I'm working and now are in good condition but I missed them every day every hour every breathe every second and how can I not I was like a robot back then just function they added colors in my life..... In my dark life they were Rainbow..... And He was that sun that never sets...
I love him I still do alot ...he is famous business man now he had achieved alot .... In the family of doctors..... He is the first businessman ... He has gottten more handsome now........ He is that one person which newspaper never left ....as if it have saved special spot for him .
This is my first overseas client in that country..... We first had online meetings and then they decided to conduct an offline meeting for Which im going to country Z after 10years.
Roaming in streets I realised nothing remain same forever ...... Many area has gone through redevelopment ... I met the principal ..... I talked with him he told me that my friends have came alot of te here in the name of information regarding me but I have talked with him after I woke up that not to disclose anything regarding my situation. When I was going back as I recieved a call from client principal gave me an invitation card ....yeah my fools are getting married. ........... And at the same day as they foolishly make some promises like "Darlings let's get married in the same day " which I thought they will never be able to complete as they were crazy about love marriage.....but look at now they are 28 and getting married now ....... Im extremely afraid and excited to meet them even from afar my heart will be contented I guess.....
After meeting with client I went to amusement park which is near the school where we had our first date .... It's the same day if we had been normal it would have been our 10th anniversary. ..but he had moved on as in interviews he said he is taken he had kept her private away from any social media for her safety .... And why not he deserved the best .
Standing outside the avenue I saw their pre wedding posters those 3 couples .... They have grown up and doing well in their life just as They dreamed they are rocking it......... As I slowly enter the bride room ..... So much of bustle .... Many things are here and there as they seems to nervous for their new step in their life.... One of the bride maid saw me and asked who are you ...... they glanced at me and recognized also ...... They were quite surprised .... Within as fraction of second I received slap, hug ,kisses by them all over my face... even that slap sounds good ..... they cursed me first like "you little bish where were you all those year do you know how much we searched for you hnn ....... " and bombarded me with uncountable questions ........ But soon I their parents arrived I greeted them and now its the time for brides entry. ... I hugged them and congratulated them with the depth of my heart...... When I saw their groom it left me in shocked as one of them was literally marrying the guy whom she used to fight like cat and dog 😂 ..... wow people in love ..... so beautiful now they all are officialy married.......unknowingly I found my eyes searching for HIM .... But I got to know he had came before me but due to some emergency he had to leave ...... Almost night time but instead of spending their time with their hubbies they are hear eating my brain instead of their husband...... Meantime I told them about all the things which happened to me while I was away ... How I was struck in abyss of life .......how I was insecure about my everything ........ They realised they were wrong to slap me but yeah even that slap was out of their love for me...... To them I have always been a little sister that they shower her with a lot of love.......
Meanwhile I asked them about his secret gf Which they themselves don't know about.... They told me how desperate he was when I wasn't in the contact how he tried every means to reach to me..... But didn't got anything..... Maybe he gave up and why not he is free to do so anyone would do the same I guess.......
We 4 slept in that one bed hugging eachother tightly while their husband spending their wedding night without their wife ...
Next day they held a reception in formal approach as they had intimate wedding among the family member...... I saw him and like a crow whose eye never let the sight of shiny things I stared the hell out of him........ At some point our eyes met but still my gaze didn't waved...... As if let I'm filling my heart to max for all those years absence. .......while staring. I
didn't realised that now he is standing in front of me ...... My heart jumped out my body with shock.... I heard him asking me "how are you??" I don't know how to answer him .... Should I say I was doing fine for my parents but it was all empty without you.... Its pointless now he have someone whom he cherish a lot ..... I just said "Fine I guess"..... Only to to have a reply like hmmm mm from him which sounded like the best melody I have ever listened in my life...... We had some talk like professional life
and all ...... He didn't get much personal ..... He seemed so distant ..... He was called as he is bestfriend of groom ......
In evening they have arranged some little party which I gladly accepted as I want to be the part of their happy moment .....
But it didn't go as I planned I got myself totally drunk and disheveled... Those newly-weds left me with him ..... And to distract myself I drank a lot...... He was just sitting their silently while using the phone maybe talking to his gf as he seemed to click the photos of the glasses and drink . I won't lie I was extremely jealous . But it was also my fault I shut all the connection and how can I expect them to be hang on for me ... It's not like I'm someone special.It seems alcohol have occupied my all the cells.... All I see is him everywhere. ..... I started to walk towards the hotel room from beach as I know if I were to stay i'll loose it all ..... But I was stopped by strong hands which I know Its him .... My eyes desperate .....I know Its wrong for that girl but maybe just one time let me kiss this man I thought by myself myself.... As if im third wheeling in his beautiful life with his gf .... And I let my wild thought win ..... I kissed him loosing my sanity ....... To me it was most incredible feeling after all he is the only person whom I loved like crazy little teenage girl..... When I realised Im wrong and it's wrong to do this to him..... I choose to ran away cowardly. .......like I have been doing this from past 10 years ..... He ran after me stopping me as if he want answer of my those selfish actions........ I found tears rolling down my cheeks...... I was not in senses but I still said those words ....... "I love you Czar .... I love you so much that it scares me everytime.... I thought maybe i'll forgot and move on in those year but this feelings have been carved in my heart like tattoos...... I think about you every single time when I close my eyes.....I..I am fool ....... Unknowingly I still dream about having future with you ....... A future where I wake up and see you in my arms ...... Only you and me ........... But in those dreams I forgot you have feelings too.... You have freedom to choose your life partner. ...... I ..Im sorry I wasted your time ...... I...I wish you have beautiful future with....your gf ........she sure is extremely lucky to have you......such an amazing person you are....... Good luck ..." I don't remember what more things I blaber that day but next day when I woke up I found I was in my hotel room...around 11 am...huge headache. ..arhh..... I don't know how I came here .... Maybe he helped me...I bathed and get ready to go downstairs for lunch as they have booked that beach resort ......... Wow given to how they looked their hubby must have make them beg for more.... As they spend their wedding night alone........
I noticed him..... He was on a call ......
After lunch when I remember my last night deed which I know I must apologize to him for such actions.....
I went near him.... Only to get pulled by him and he dragged me to silent place....I was shocked I thought he maybe very angry and he has right to be..... I found myself getting slammed against the wall with his arms on the wall..... He make me meet his gaze which I was avoiding ..... He looked so dominant. ...... He said ......" Yeah I do have gf and we have been in relationship from past one decade ...she ghosted me because she thought I might not accept her if she cant walk ..... Yes my gf is very selfish she ignored me in that phase when she needed me the most ..... She is very cold .... Very heartless she says she love me alot but she avoid my gaze..... She kissed me yesterday ...... My first kiss which was exclusively for her..... But she says she regrets her action... Tell me what should I do ? " as he ended..... I was flabbergasted.... My heartbeats going all crazy ... I got whole damn volcano eruption in my stomach .....ahhh has it always been me.... With trembling voice I finally said it out loud ..." Was that me ? Even though we never broke up officially... Why were you even hanging on this... When I had lost all my hope u still continued from your side...... Czar do you love me ? Cause I do .... I love you....... So much even though I know I don't deserve "......I found his hand stopping me from saying further ..
His eyes screaming his words even though im practically dumb but not dumb enough to not to see his feelings..... He confessed. ..." It has always been you ..... I should have confessed you very clearly ....... From your first day of school I have known you ...... In order to avoid attention you pretended to be mute ....when I clearly saw you speaking .... You don't know but I have seen you going throughout suffering phases during those 6 months ..... At first I thought I was just curious...... But you seems to have done black magic on me everywhere you go my eyes ....my legs follows you ....... And when you ignored me I was very desperate and hurt ........ I ended up in a fight because that guy talked about you as if your a toy .......and mean to be controlled..... I never regret that I have those records in my character list. ........ When you confessed that day ....trust me that was happiest day of my life.... You have always been my first in everything. ...... Unknowingly I fell deeper in love with you ...... Our first date you don't know.... I prepared that from months ...... But when we lost contact. ....... I searched for you I even
begged to principal just to get your information. ...... But got nothing .... I thought if I become more better and capable than before.... You would choose me...... I raised myself as your only choice..... I got to know about your accident and past not few year back ....principal told me in alumni meet...... I regretted why ... Why I was not with you when you needed me..... Aina.....I love you..... I want to be yours....... I belong to you .....you fucking own me........I don't have patience to wait any longer ...... I need you Aina... Your my home ....... I love You ...."he burst out.
I kissed him with all the love ...and desire I hold for him and he kissed back..... Tears rolling down his cheek ..... It hurts me alot to see him in this state... I hugged him as tightly as I could...... I told him...... "Czar yes.... We belong to eachother .....I was meant to be yours.... I love you too.....you are most beautiful person to me" ..... We hold eachother not ready to let go .......
After some no after a long hug ...... We finally let go..... I looked at him his cheek ...nose and eyes have turned red due to crying ..... Uff he still look so handsome and adorable. .....unable to control myself I kissed him again...... I snaked my hands around his neck pulling him more closer to mine .....he tasted so sweet.... Best dessert I ever had .... He pinched my waist making me moan in between..... I found his tongue seeking for entrance and I let him to make mess out of me ...his hands on my waist ...pulling me even more more closer to him ....while exploring my mouth with his tongue as he lifted me off my feet. I found myself getting breathless ... We broke apart ..panting with our heart creating loud drumming. ..I looked into his eyes Which clearly burns in desire and love ....... He shove his face into my neck ..... Hugging me tightly .....he spoke ....my dear girlfriend lets go on our 2nd official date........ Which I happily said yes .....
We are again dating.... He is just getting more lovely day by day.....how adorable ....
After 2 year
It's our wedding night....ahh I don't know im excited and afraid too.... In those two year I get to know his dark and dominant side making me go all crazy about him..... I love every inch of him..... Not those perverted ladies giving me horny ideas to please my hubby in our first night together .......making me blush....and shy shy....
He arrived After... only to found me taking off my jewellery and makeup .....he has changed his dress to casual while .... Im still in my wedding gown ...he helped me with zipper.....
That night..... He showed me his beast and his crazy desire which I never know ....I have been craving for....I liked him dominating me ...our bodies talked with extreme pleasure ......he made the whole mess out of me ..... Taking me to extreme pleasure...... He looked so sexy wrapped around me..... I liked every voice he made for me .....whole night he worshipped me till I can't take anymore. It morning now I saw him sleeping next beside me..... I thanked god to let me be his soulmate.....to write him in my destiny. ......
When I tried to move only to fell from bed..... My voice and body all sore.....wow pain before and after pleasure uff...... I slowly tried to stand but my legs seems to lost strength ...I slowly sat on bed ....he had make me wear his shirt...... He moved and now up..... He pulled me closed and wished me morning energetically ...... In his raspy voice....how ....could he be so fine...... I received butterfly kisses on my face by him which I love the most..... He helped me shamelessly in bath and many more ...morning seemed very long.......my hubby.
With him year passed beautify. ... This winter I found myself getting sick more and more..... After checkup I got to know IM pregnant ......14 years ago in that accident ....doctors have said to me that I might not have problem in early pregnancy days but in later phases I might have complication... But report says im healthy enough to deliver our baby.
When he got this news he cried out of happiness ...... But his overprotective and possessive nature seems to get stronger day by day .... Uff its my last month....around 5th month I got to know that i m carrying triplets.....ohh my god not one but 3 .....I was on cloud nine but afraid also... It is really hard to handle one how will I handle 3 .....I finally gave birth to three little angles....
1 eldest babygirl and 2 boys ...these naughty beans......
Im getting happy day by day ....with my wonderful family....I love him and our precious angels......
Czar you are the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me ......even if god come to ask for you I will hide you in my arms and never let go off you....... I love you beyond love....
