I don't know if you really meant everything you said but I really didn't want you to tell me that you TRIED loving me. You said my eyes talked, you said you can see how much I love or like you from the way I looked at you so couldn't you just lie even though I told you to be honest? I tried hating you but honestly I think that love emotion is way bigger than that hatred I tried to feel for me. I never really loved someone like I loved you. I am writing this because I know you won't be seeing this. Wish I was a bit more courageous maybe then we could have been different. Wish I could have made you fall in love with me rather than making you try to love me and fall for me. I really wanted to ask how much more I should've done so that you could actually love me! It hurts so bad that after all this I still love you but I don't want you back because we only gonna hurt each other so it's better like this. But I miss my friend... I also miss the person who sneakily made me fall for him...
I loved you and I still do... pathetic, maybe?
