"Maybe it is unrequired love? When I always wanted to be loved but end up being alone or being used?"
Erva Elvina, a 2nd year college student, who's trying her best to live off her life with no mistake. But the biggest one was about to happen.
Life is all about ups and downs but who knew, her life would go downwards within few years?
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❝I wish, it was like before and I was a kid where everyone loved me?❞ While thinking that, she got off from her bus to be at her college, it was nothing new for her, but maybe, now, it will be something new, because there was a new student, who just transfered from another city.
Hael Dylan, 20 year old male, who transfered here for his dad and he imagined his new college to be nothing more then just boring.
He came to class and the teacher gave a small introduction before starting the class and then told him to sit next to Elvina.
She liked him as if he had something magnetic to him and it almost got her destroyed when Dylan said, ❝Didn't thiught you would fall for me right in this moment!~❞ ❝I didn’t, for your kind information.❞
A girl, who almost thrived for love, saying that was something unexpected but she didn’t wanted to start it in the wrong ways. She started to talk with him and saw that he was pretty nice even though he looks rude.
They didn’t had anything common in themselfs but they became great friends within few days and days seems happier for Elvina and Dylan.
Both fell for eachother within a short time but it was something, both want to ignore it, their feelings were getting in their friendship but both showed no interest on eachother.
They continued their friendship lile that as there was nothing to do and both of them, they didn’t wanted to ruin the friendship. They could see that, they are in love, so, what was stopping them?
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Family of Elvina, she had a brother and a sister. Both of them were older, they were the golden child of the house, they didn’t had to do much around the house to show how greayful they are or not.
But on the other hand, Elvina had to do it. She did everything she could just to get the same attention they were getting. It felt like, being the youngest was the crime she did. She tried to meet up with the expectations but it wasn’t good enough, or never even good.
Meanwhile, Dylan's family, they were great and had a high reputation around. He had 2 brothers, who seem pretty well but there he was, struggling with the school works and the social life and the expectations of his family. His mental health was draining day by day.
He tried everything, just not to get hurt or hurt someone in the process of losing his ownself. He tried his best, to do the best and be the best and not to hurt anyone in his family.
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As they saw, that they were falling, one of them took the courage to propose, it seemed like, everything was going good and both of them are madly in love but the best part was, there was nothing, that seemed like to be the problem.
Soon, 8 months past, and Elvina was thinkinh what she should give him as a anniversary gift which he can carry all the time with him but there was nothing she liked.
Soon, Dylan started to distance himself from her and started to hurt her to make her leave but she didn’t leave, she stayed with him, trying the best she could do but it seemed impossible. He was being more and more careless with his words and sentences. As if, now, he doesn’t care.
Elvina tried her best to keep him and make him better but in the process of doing so, she started to get worse on the other sides. Which was really effecting her in the worse way. She was never good in expressing her words or comforting people but it seemed like, life wanted to teach her that love wasn’t for her.
She broke up with him as she was severely sick and even the doctors said her to get admitted to the hospital but she didn’t listen and came back home with some medicines.
She couldn’t bear the pain in her heart and she was being more sick. She cried alot for him but what was the point of crying when you can't be together?
On the other hand, Dylan, he was happy that she left him and tried to contain his sadness and stay away from her but at the end, he couldn’t. Again, he tried to talk with her but she was cold to him but tried not to hurt him.
He was acting as the same but it was hurt for Elvina to keep up with that pain and go through the same pain again. She tried to keep her distance while talking to him normally but she couldn’t deny the fact that she still loves him, she loves him alot.
Again, another 8-10 months past and he was trying to get close with her and be her boyfriend but she made it clear that she can't be his girlfriend. She knows she loves him but now, she wants him with someone whom he truly loves and never tries to get away.
She tried to keep her distance but one day, he asked if he could kiss her and he misses her lips. At that moment, she couldn’t help but think, 'Was it me who he loved, or was it my body that he loved?'
........ After few seconds of silence, she said no, and left. There was nothing to do or say as it was just a everyday thing. Every couples does that, to show, how much they love eachother but for her, it was words, which matters more then the physical touches.........
"Maybe I'm not perfect to deserve love or is it my mind, who wants all thoes thing but after marriage? Maybe it is just someone unrequired love, which I'm seeking from the beganining? Was it wrong of me to do?"
It's all about how our minds wants to accept love and not the other persons fault. Maybe it is, we just decide not to ignore it? And that's how it ends?
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