Imagine
You found a friend and was so friendly but buzy
You fell for tht person
It took time
but tht ended up as one-sided love...I guess
[1st love is always best cuz the stories are Incomplete]
Then you decided not to fell again
But
Unconditionally someone's love care and affection couldn't stop you....
He came ....
I never ever thought tht some1 might ever fell for me
"He love me , r ya serious ???"
....I was surprised.
Mostly Loving some1 can be expected but being loved back , is quite hard...
I still tried to not take it seriously..
Ask me, why ?
If he left too ? Then?
But I actually hurt him re!
So,
He was cold in the start...😑
Made me feel irritated...
I have habit...to be ignored..🙂
Then another try....
So
gradually developed himself...
I wanted to develop him...
So tht they should say truly,
He also changed in love...👍
[Some say...
PEOPLE CHANGE IN LOVE...]
I hurt him
I denied tht I love him...
I truly didn't love him at first
But I thought
Maybe this time I can trust my destiny...
I should give it a chance...
Maybe just this time...
I gave a chance,
To this relationship...
Forgating the fact tht I hurt others mostly...
*Reason why I hate myself*
I hurt others dear to me...🥀
I fell soon too
But
Am young so
How would I understand my feelings
Itz not tht easy
Tht
It was love , attraction or......
But I truly fell...
Bro,
I love him yaar
Killlllllll Meeeeeeeeeee
I have bitter tongue,
Even if I have something good to say
I say something bad only 🤐
I don't bad mouth others
Itz just I couldn't say anything good in sweet words
I dunno why
I say something bad only
*Reason why I hate myself*
I was not faking it
I truly cared
I admit I said bad about you but it was same reason me being bad n
I didn't meant to hurt you
And
abt
When I said "Idk if love him or not"
Itz just I don't know how to explain
I never said I don't love him
And
I didn't explain Myself about the misunderstanding cuz
I don't think I deserve forgiveness
I asked AI
It said talk it out with him
Bro , it ain't easy
Asked one of my frnd
One said leave him....🤐
Bro...kuch bhi
It is not possible
And I don't like when some1 leave me after hurting me
I try to change tht person's thought
And if tht person is suitable then...
It would be miracle tht he actually changed cuz of me...🤧
So my dear Sister type frnd adviced me to tell him my feelings to him
I said
He won't believe me
She still insisted to tell my feelings
(Yes,
Everything I said in start)
She understands that's why asked me to tell him
But
You know my thoughts?
I already told him not to forgive me...
"He won't believe me I know
He won't believe
He will hate me
He may never talk to me
Will ignore me".....I said
She told to try...
But he won't msg me you know
I loved you yaar
Only if you were to meet me offline
I would have easily explained,
Cuz online words cannot be trusted....
I never lied about future
I didn't show you fake future...
Even if I were to show fake feelings,
Future was never fake...
I called you dumb ?
Stupid ? Crazy ?
Never ever!!!!
[Tht are the terms
used to define me by my family 😑]
I love you that way only
I can have tht chance to tell you things
You think am here to take advantage of your feelings right?
Hah!
Baka you ,
If you ever meet me n
You would seem to be a normal person,
Unlike a stupid like me
Am psychopath....
I understand you a bit...
Sweet , caring , but you give low attention...
why you talk less 🤐?
why you don't try to irritate me ?
But I didn't mean to say wht I said
I don't know when you are reading this
But
I wrote it just on the nxt night of when I hurt you again...
But I truly didn't lie
I didn't lie
I swear I didn't lie
I didn't told you anything yesterday
Cuz misunderstanding is already created...
You won't believe me
I don't want to beg for Love
If you love me then itz upto you
To forgive me or not
I won't ask for forgiveness
And if I said something else,
Just ask me
Itz not like am gonna lie
I will tell...
If you are loyal then why would I lie..?
I won't play the victim card
I hate tht
Nowadays mood swings are causing this behavior of mine
All of the sudden
Am Sad , Happy , crying , depressed and out of nowhere hatred came or sometimes love arrived....!!!!
(I won't use emoji , I don't want to use emoji to describe my feelings)
I know I still don't deserve forgiveness
Entirely upto if you believe it or not
I don't want to get any sympathy
Just hope tht You decide wisely
Do not forgive me
🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀
I will never fall in Love Again!!!!!!!
Bhad me gaya hating anyone
I won't trust anyone
Let me be Alone n
Dreaming to be in love
Knowing I don't deserve
Everyone's life gets messed up when I interfere....
I guess
I hate myself
Problems Incoming
Peace outgoing
Jindagi kharab hai
Just wished to have a friend
Who wouldn't judge me
No matter wht I do
But still advice me
My school life almost wasted
Is he okay
He didn't reply
I hurt him
Abe meri hi glti hoti hai
Mujhe mar kyu nhi dete yaar
Kill me n
Please
Just kill me
I can't afford to harm anyone else
I am root of mistakes
I guess
I look positive
Am not
Am full of negative thoughts
Am positive cuz
I can't afford to make dear one's sad
Cuz of me
So i just
*Smile*
.
This was not scripted
I just wrote everything
I feel
One question For Treasure
☆Do you know why I asked you to find
some1 else other than me?
Itz not cuz you are not suitable
Neither cuz of you nor cuz I didn't loved you
But,
Cuz I knew I might hurt you again in the future...
So tht "some1" would be there for you
Maybe we were not destined
But I tried to provoke the destiny
To change my faith
But remember 1 thing
Am not lieing
But
I will find you one day
Not joking
Don't underestimate me too
[ AM GONNA COME IN FUTURE ]
[BHAVISHYA]
🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀
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