- Summary : 𝗦𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘂𝗽𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗮 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿, 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗱𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘂𝗽𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗮.
You're alone in the midst of greenery, under a wooden roof. You feel like you've just woke up from a nightmare.
The place, the surroundings are very captivating, enlarged area of green forest, crystals in a waterfall, butterflies tingling in each flowers, rays of sun shining bright, birds are crossing over sunrise with melodies.
But you,
You're still a mess. Your household is all scattered. All the things of your tiny house is broken like your heart.
You're groaning in pain,
you're too weak to even stand.
The bruises and scars, the circles under your eyes clearly telling that how sleepless and restless are you, seems like deep trench, endless pain that you're holding for how long.
You're this helpless that you can't move even an inch.
You rub off your eyes and slowly open them,
still as red as blood searching for the '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚.'
You found yourself in a state of fully damaged. You destroyed yourself.
'The half of you thinking about the girl in the rain,
And the other half making you beg for more cocaine.'
You're disgusting, stinking, laying lifelessly above the cold floor. How feeble of you that you can't control your body, your mind, your feelings. A cold breeze that hurt your skin because, it's bleeding but you don't care all the way.
You're being busy in making another roll to smoke, opening another packet to inhale, straightening white lines with a photo of your '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚' because there's the only way you think that you calm down the snakes crawling inside your tummy.
You just wanna erase this eternal pain but, all you're doing is slowly ending yourself inside the smoke of cigarettes.
'She ain't the reason that how ungrateful and selfish are you moreover, she also destroyed herself in pulling you out from this eternal hell.'
"𝗟𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸" your few last words before leaning yourself at the kitchen counter, hands dropped that empty bottle as soon as you drunk last drops and rolled towards a tiny figure standing at the front door.
You smirked after the last puffed, the relaxation you got.
You closed your eyes, you're at the verge of dying but, 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤𝙭𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 that's why you're still smiling like a maniac in pain. You're slowly making yourself rotten.
"𝗖𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗸"
Again, you opened your eyes, found yourself in a comfy bed. At the beside your 'little one' continuously watching at you. Innocence, purity and the worries about you in clearly showing up in her pretty eyes.
-"𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄, 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸" soon your eyes are filled with water. She's slowly caressing your hair, showing her all affection and focus towards your ugly face.
'A smile plastered in her beautiful structure.
You hold her hand and kiss it, once in a while you feel any better.'
You hold onto her tightly and stuttered few phrases-
"𝗜-𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗹𝘆 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲...𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁...𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝘂𝘁, 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲, 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿..."
You started apologizing to her and she just blankly looking at you.
"𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗮𝘆...𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘀𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗲, 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝘂𝘁,𝗜 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱𝗻'𝘁... 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗰-𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱𝗻'𝘁" she pats your back, you're trying hard to catch your breath since you're all tear up.
You were never like this but, this time you can't stop yourself."𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗾𝘂𝗶𝘁, 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘂𝗽 𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝘁 𝗯𝘂𝘁, 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁. 𝗜'𝗺 𝗸𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝘄𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘼𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙚, 𝗜'𝗺 𝗸𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝘄𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴." You cried like you put out all the burden that you were holding, broke up yourself in from of your 'little one' that you never '𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗱.'
You're begging her to save you, keep begging. 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙥𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙘.
𝙎𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙖𝙮;
She's with you all the time, spending each hour with you, holding your hands and lost in each other eyes. It's like time is paused between you two. These days, you're fallin' for your '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚'. Her silence is not bothering you at all. Your braincells are in your control. It's been hours since you didn't flicker any cigarettes. Just two of you in a dark room sitting in front of each other, along the bed. The silence between you two is whispering how many questions, complains, statements but any of you don't bother to blink an eye on each other.
𝘿𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙, 𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙠𝙨 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙;
You see some changes in yourself, you're growing up again, away from those packets of Marlboro. You don't need those needles anymore cause she's relieving you in every possible way. She's really helping you with her all love and care. She's slowly erasing your pain making you feel your surroundings.
'She gave you a new life,
taking you in a broad daylight, walking with you every step away from your intoxication.
Your bad habits slowly turning out in evening prayers.'
Your mental health is stable now, she's the reason of all the sudden changes '𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚.'
You started adoring your '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚',
'lil glimpse of her
searching your inner peace in her eyes,
Plucking red roses for '𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗿'
every night in her lap, sharing the endless skies.'
"𝗔𝗹𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, 𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗲"
A day around the sea shore, sun was dancing upon the ocean. You were with your '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚' her deep blue eyes collapsed with your green ones, 'again, everytime'
"𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗦𝗮𝗺, 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁." Since that day, she spoke first time, her voice is still melodious as ever.
You've found everything in her. Now, aside from those dark clouds of smoke, 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧.
«𝗔𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 4 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀»
"Hey Sam, finally you're back my man! Where were you till this long?"
"Somewhere in heaven... with my '𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚'."
"Stop joking around."
"I'm not joking. I was with her, she made a change '𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚'."
"Are you out of your mind? She passed away 4 years ago."
"That day, after you broke up with her and went to kinshuk Island for your trip, she did 𝙨𝙪𝙞𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚.I didn't bother to tell you because, wasn't she the "𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹?"
𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗿𝘂𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝗮 𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝗿𝘂𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗱.
-/Alexa play "Dost banke" song and let that mf suffer.
-/^xoxo.
