When I was in elementary school in the age of 8 I had a crush to my classmate name Japs it's taller than me and have a handsome face, we group in cleaning the garden and we talk like a close friend until I need to enroll to another schools for personal problem then yrs pass. The age of 11 that I'm back to my old school and the first day of school I saw Japs in the canteen with his friends luckily his friends saw me then they call me to join them, after I join them before the recess end they push me to Japs and I sat on his thigh, my face turned red from embarrassment so I couldn't say goodbye to them I just walk fast, but I heard them laughing, fast forward we are in grade6 now and it's our last in elementary 1week before our graduation we are just strangers to each other but it's ok for because sometimes we talk like the old days but later on he have a girlfriend now and it's truly hurt those 2yrs that I enroll to another school they know the name Japs because all the time I'm talking alot about him funny right, but I wish I confess to him before our graduation but I could because he have a girlfriend now, know that his aware of my feelings to him but I guess he just don't like me at all?.....years past where in highschool now and we totally stranger's to each other why? Because when our paths cross, it's just like nothing at all and I realized that I need to stop my feelings.... I stop my self and just go to the flow but before we moving up in grade10 he add me on Facebook I'm so happy and my heart beat fast I didn't think much so I confirm him fast when I stalk his account i just found out that it's just his second account and not the main one.... After that happen I saw my self falling to him again and I now my self that I didn't stop my feelings to him because this simply adding me my heart beat faster than I thought so I realized that do I have a chance? Because he add me!. 2years before we go to another steps in college I still like him 11 fucking years that I like him it's I'm so fucking dumb rightHAHAHA but by the way I didn't tell the totally what happen I just shortcut it. Also I'm in my 1st yr in college now and I just I don't like him now???😅 Because the BL I now making my heart beat fast HAHAHA
