It was the beginning of my tenth grade and I was both excited and nervous but more nervous as I wanted someone who was my friend to be with me. I came in the class and sat on the first chair on the second row, the chair next to me was empty and there was no one sitting next to me, after the morning assembly, we all came back to class and I sat on my seat waiting for someone to come sit next to me. People kept on coming in the classroom but not one sat next to me, but then came a girl, let's call her Sam, she smiled and asked if she could sit next to me and ask relieved and related I was, I smiled brightly and nodded and she sat. I didn't notice have much friends and my friends always betrayed me for other so I was completely alone and was guarded. And since I was an extrovert, when people ignored me or left me alone, that really saddened and bothered me to the core. The feeling of being alone made me sick to my stomach, made me feel like I'm not wanted and that everyone hates me.
As happy I was, nervously I asked her if she would liked to have lunch with me and she smiled and agreed and I was happy. Few months passed and soon the situation changes, even though she still sits with me and is my deskmate, she starts to slightly ignore me.
As I mentioned before I have no friends, from the beginning, I was a class leader and because of my bossy behaviour, nobody really liked me and ask I grew I understood it, and in my eighth grade I greatly changed, I became more polite, helpful, compassionate and tried so hard, so that people would like me and that I would get atleast one friend.
Now, back to the story, she had two more friends let's call her Olivia and Alia, so it was like a group of four as I was in it somehow. Initially I was so happy that now I had someone to talked to. I refused to acknowledge them as friends as now because of the previous incidents making someone a friend meant a lot of time spent with them and lot of trust in them. So, Sam was really close with Olivia, and Alia had a best friend in other class just as Olivia had in the class next door, so during lunch time she and I are alone and she comes with me because I presume she also hates to be alone. But slowly as days passed, she started to act weirdly around me. She didn't use to talk to me and ignore me pro max every day. It was okay for me because atleast I was not sitting alone.
But after few days, she began a new system, she used to keep her bag on her desk, i.e, near me and then use to go and sit with Olivia for the entire day, leaving me alone and came back when school got over to pick up her bag and this became frequent. This was not allowed, she used to get irritated if I read a little louder, or shaked my leg. She wasn't even trying to hide it, during recess she would ask Alia to take her leaving me and ignoring me, she used to talk rudely to me and use to bluntly tell me if she didn't like anything I did and that broke my heart. Sometimes, the way she talked to other faking, ignoring me, making me feel that she hated me, made me want to punch her pretty little face. I felt sad, I felt alone and I felt that I had no one. She was a bad person, well the worst. But, one day, there was an announcement...
To be continued.....✨✨
~Ann
