We've known each other since we we're young. We have 3years age gap. I call him big brother but his not literally my brother his my uncle, mother's cousin. I have a good impression of him, his kind to me,he buys me food, and he's handsome of course we can't forget about that. I treat him as a brother but I don't know what this feeling is when we talk to each other I avoid eye contact like it will burn my just if I do look into his eyes. So I just avoid it. When he talks about his past girlfriends I tried to shrugg it off and say, "don't you have other things to talk about I'm getting bored" and just play with my phone.
Then, there was one time in the afternoon he sat next to me then told me he's going to his classmate's birthday and asked me if I wanted to come "I said if you can take me that would be great" and took his phone and played with it since my phone didn't have battery and he just let me do so without question. We saw his friends coming our way then he introduced me to them and to the girl who's birthday we're going to attend, yeah it's a girl I've known it since the day before that, that the girl asked my brother to attend her birthday. She agreed and we walked to their house and we ate there and it was already 6 o'clock when we waited for the bus to take us home. We talked as we waited then the bus arrived we walked to my house but he didn't stay long since we have classes the day after.
A few days passed, I don't quite remember when exactly. It was noon and I was sitting on the stairs near a tree. He came up to me and told me that the girl we attended the birthday confessed to her. "I was right" I didn't know what come up to me for me to say that then he asked " how do you know" and I answered " I just know. So did you agree?" He said he didn't. I felt my nerves calm down.
There was a prom, we both attend. That was the time I found he had a girlfriend and it was neighbour I don't know why but I didn't agree after he said that her sister didn't approve of their relationship because of the girls behaviour. I thought I couldn't care less like always but I actually gave out a disapproval. But I just shrugged it off as always, "he's my brother"
He graduated, he studied in the city so he didn't come home much often. I got bored and called him he said he was busy so I didn't continue, it's just I feel lonely without him he's always been the one who goes to me. He occupied a place in my life but the feeling is unanswered.
How about you tell me?
